workin morning shift today.
i just cliq with ppl by the name of jonathan.
one's my childhood mates
another my colleg.

so went out with jonathan`frag after which
was shoppin at vivo.
and of course tht makes him my carrier.*luffs.
pretti fun going out with him
he's a super duper lame guy.
we'll luffin lyk mad ppl on street.

and by 9pm
i'm dead tired alrd.
so we took a cab home =)

11:04 PMsecret`told

lewis jl and ms princess.
suppose to go down to jack's pub
but pretti sick and tired of tht place.

went ard spore literally.
scary romantic weird funny places.
almost all covered in one day.
frm east to west.

the driftin exp~
exciting man!

5:24 AMsecret`told

`1stdayofnewyear

uncle dickson was flyin off
send him to the airport with mom and dad
after which dinner at swensen.

returned frm the airport with mom
and dad's out again.
he came to my house.
laze ard..

before tht monkey called ask if i wanted to go to jack's pub
he wanted to send me ther..
but i told him no.
then calls frm my dearest princess diana,
sayin she was bored.
so i said alrights down to jack's pub then.
so in the end he drove me to jack's pub
and he himself went to meet his fren.

gambling gambling!

4:12 AMsecret`told

its new year eve.
uncle dickson came to fetch me frm wrk.
and we went to grannie house together
can't celebrate new yr due to grandpa's death.
but just a gatherin on new yr eve.

well i'm reali missin grandpa.
somethi just missing without him.
*sign.

11:03 PMsecret`told

workin on vday.
thanks for all the wishes and gifts.
it did bring a smile.
roses roses roses lovely roses=)
it's all about roses.

the one i wish for was you.
not a single call nor msg,you told me you still love me didnt you?
do you mean what you said?
i'm doubting really doubting.

11:53 PMsecret`told

he came down to tangs with elson
we'll chit chattin and then
he asked me wad i wan for vday.
i was screamin and yellin in my heart.
what i wan is him* as a gift,wrapped.
but tht's impossible.
well is not abt the gift is abt thots.

...
i just smiled and say is not needed.
cause you can nv give me what i wan.

10:35 PMsecret`told

and his actual birthday today.
and the question is..
who'll he be with?
definitely not you v i a n.

10:27 PMsecret`told

his 21st bday approachin
well opened a chalet for celebration
i was told but not invited.*so sweet.
lost for words actually.
his gf will be ther anyway.

tell me how much do i actually mean to you?

10:36 PMsecret`told

alrights collected my result.
did'nt do well,
somehow predicted actually.
well make it to poly still.(=

7:33 PMsecret`told

24hours and less
i'm gonna collect my result.
butterflies in my tummy alrd.
this piece of paper gonna bring me to my next milestone.
doubt i'll do well.
i'm really scared.

12:17 AMsecret`told

people ard are askin
valentine ideas..gift,dates,etc..
and this common question just pop out.
so which lucky guy get a chance to spend vday with you?

well vian spendin this valentine with..

Mr Issey Miyake
Mr Jean Paul Gaultier
Ms Narciso Rodriguez

i've got no date,so i'm wrkin alrights*luffs.

8:30 PMsecret`told

the inner me surface

i don't know what's really wrong with me.
this just isn't my character.

so the story goes lyk this..
i was sick and i went to wrk.
if i'm not ther,
tht gay`jimmy got to wrk full shift.
so i didnt wanna be bad.

and then..

tht fuckin gay scolded me for givin away jpg paper bag
to one of my other colleague.
i mean come on is just a paper bag.
i walked away and joanne was askin me what happen

then tears started to flow.
i felt so weak and bullied
i didnt noe what came over me tht i did'nt even say him back.
tht isn't me at all,so james and QL was tryin to cool me down.*shag.

have i changed?

i'm longer tht strong anymore.

12:49 PMsecret`told

vian's really sick.

6:48 PMsecret`told

shoppin with colleagues again.
so i met jonathan at scott.
then we headed to tangs.
laming ard with tracy.
waited for james to end wrk and QL to arrive.

so jon,me,james and QL went shoppin ard.
while waitin for the rest to end wrk.
bought shorts and some top and jon was my bag carrier.
then met up with CH,JS and caroyln.

so headed for supper.
stingray,lala,tofu,carrot cake,fried keow teow
and the list goes on...
as usual lamin and crappin ard..
then home sweet home.

1:40 AMsecret`told

too bored at wrk till i start meddlin with ribbons.*isseymiyake.
and after wrk slackin with colleague again.
then met up with monkeys awhile
and home sweet home.

1:02 AMsecret`told

49days
49 days after grandpa had passed away.
alrights after the funeral thingie.
headed to malaysia.
reached home at 7pm.
suppose to meet the girlie girls.
but i was just too too tired.
thus,home sweet home.
just finished my bath and is..
sleeping time (-.-)zZzzZzz
yes,i'm tht tired.

7:40 PMsecret`told

shopping with colleagues.
spotted tis glass wine cup.
with metal roses on it.
wanted to get it
but quite costly thou.
hmmm...

bought 2 burberry fragrance frm QL.
came along with a burberry bear and sheep as gift
*cute rite:)

so we waited for QL to end wrk
and neverless supper again.
curry chicken this time round.
yummy yum!
FATS FATs FAts Fats fats...

1:14 PMsecret`told

supper with colleagues.
stingray,lala,kangkong,prawns.
yummy yum.
crappy lame ppl.
but it did brings a smile:)
and we got realli irritated with this girl at our wrk place.
agh,she's really beyond hope.

1:46 AMsecret`told

shoppin with ms diana at town.
it's been real long since we last met up.
goodness!
i miss her tht much.
i'm missin WL too..
as usual shoppin ard town.
and shopping bags..

afterwhich supper with patrick.
crappin and lamin again..
home sweet home then.

2:15 AMsecret`told

W O R K I N G

has working change my life?
it's seems lyk i'm drifting more and more away from everyone else,
i'm just too tired out.
things lyk hoggin on phone and meeting my beloved cliqs
was lyk daily kinda of thing ..
but not animore.
all i cld tink of is S L E E P.
SLEEP AND SLEEP zZzZzZz.
sleeping is a luxury.*smiles.
and during off days,it'll be just grannie house.
and i've got so sick and tired of puttin make up.
agh.
someone get me out of this dumb wrkin life.

11:37 PMsecret`told

met up with ex colleg after wrk.
really shag.
but neverless,i really miss them.
it's been almost a yr since our last outing.
had dinner together chit chattt..
home then.

and wrk tml again.
sucks.

1:22 AMsecret`told

S H O P P I N Gspree.

shopping with manda at town.
i've spent almost all my pay even upon receivin them.
lots and lots of shoppin bags!
bought 3pairs of shoes some tops and some bottoms!
it's been long since i last went shoppin with my girlies.
ever since grandpa's death?
the feelin rocks to max!
arrrrrr
vian LOVES shopping.
i mean which girl don't?
and i'm still wondering if i shld get another guess top.
hmmm..

met up with lewis at ciney
then patrick.then headed down to meet monkeys for supper.
and home sweet home.
wrkin tml again,
wad a drag!
agh.

3:35 AMsecret`told

met up with francis for supper
the fish meat noodle ish YUMMY!
what can i say.
life's great,
i'm happy with how things are now.
*smiles.
i'm like a little girl in a candy store.=)

1:21 AMsecret`told

coyl came to fetch me frm wrk tht day.
had supper together.
stingray and big prawn[that huge lyk lobster*sedup!]
as usual slackin ard,talkin abt the past.
how we missed those days..
what can i say? but time wait for no man.

11:50 PMsecret`told

W O R K I N G...

i'm real busy with wrk.
i'm wrkin pratically everyday.
hardly even have time to give grannie a visit.
lets not talk abt catchin up with the others.

1:33 AMsecret`told

had a good night rest.
after yst crazy party.
so met up again with the monkeys in the night.
gossipin abt yst event and of course not forgettin.
jh's girl,
which had gone all so crazy for him.
funni girl,i must say.
ended our day at changi eatin nasi lemak.
and the guys went for majong,
me home.and why?
cause vian's WORKIN.


you really make me smile`what more could i asked for in life,i'm contented.

1:53 AMsecret`told

it's jere boy bday.
cant wish as usual.
after wrk was waiting for lewis to fetch..
and afterwhich headed to his house
waitin for him to get change..
as usual fetch everyone else and then back to chalet.


and cam whorin with shellen...

11:20 AMsecret`told

i can't be the kind of girl who can quietly stand by ur side,
watch your doin and be someone who always silently agrees with you,follow you and dont mutter a single word.
it's because i care tht's why i bother to ask.
it's because i care tht's why i can't keep shut abt your doin.
it's because i care tht's why i wanna know wher you are.
it's because i care tht's why i'm interferin ur probs.
if i don't love,what makes you tink i care?

i'm done with the appreciation,but its you who choose not to appreciate me.i hate doing thing so seriously and exclusively yet only get back truck and loads of disappointment.

I dreamt and I dream of...

walking down the road;
somewhere i can find my happiness;
a place i feel so carefree and happy;
with the someone tht cld really brings me to The-Never-Ending-Laughter Land.
its not a big thing,
but its something i yearn for.

this time, nobody can tell me wat to do, which way to go. I decide myself. we'll see,i'm tired so tired of relationship now.
but ther's somethi i'm so sure of,i'll not tht affected anymore.
probably just to numb frm the previous tht i dont seems to feel anymore.
COME ON,i don't tink i deserve such shits.

i learnt somethi frm grandpa,life still goes on...

11:13 PMsecret`told

will you marry me,my dear?

a success but i must say is quite dull and boring.
but a *yes frm the girl lighten the atmosphere.
congrats guys!=)

3:21 AMsecret`told

It's Christmas in MY`heart.
alrights as usual x'mas at cupid.
with the usual guys ard.
but sadly only manage to take pic with lewis.
the rest will either drunk or missing.

celebrated jon's bday at the same time too
he was dead drunk.
smashin cakes,mixed sauces,red bull..
so all of us ll dancing and yellin lyk crazy.
thanks for the presents,wishes ...
and you guys shld know why i can't wish back=)

6:28 PMsecret`told

you're the best present this x'mas,my love.
it really brings a smile.=)

12:00 PMsecret`told

my girlie girl's happily married.
i want to get married too!! lyk what i've said before 25.*smiles
but wher's my boy! *luffs.

can't attend her weddin due to grandpa's death,so sorry...

11:41 PMsecret`told

the boys are getting into fight every now and then.
is this the season to get violence?
the rest was fine exp JH haha babuseng.
a few stiches here and ther.
i cant stop laughing when i see him.

and after this the next thing was..
robin wackin derrick.*faints.

1:51 PMsecret`told

i've officially started workin
at tangs sellin fragrance.
working life is full of conflicts.
so when this and that tell me that and this.
it will just be yes yes yes.
and out from the other ear.=)

10:36 PMsecret`told

mango,guess..sales again.
was shopping at town.*smiles
afterwhich as usual down to jack's pub.

alrights too many thing happening.

1st i've got sprayed by some foam thing.
and it got me pretti irritated.

2nd was robin and jere.
yes guys come on i'm not choosin either one.
what more u guys are gd friends.
i dont wish to spoil the friendship here.
sorry.

3rd was monkey
he said he's gonna proposed to his gf on the 27th=)
all the best man.

4th
i've lost my precious bonia wallet!
money,atm,exlink,keys..
fcuk it.

7:03 AMsecret`told

7:07 PMsecret`told

told diana and jon abt the funeral.
jon spread to the monkeys as usual
diana to leen,manda..

alrights monkeys was reali nice.
they came down everyday includin after jon's sis weddin.
thanks guys.
breakfast lunch dinner supper.
you guys even bought lunch down
the never fail breakfast and supper
i was really :)
can't express in words i suppose.
thanks.

those concern msg,calls.
i'm fine already.
thanks guys.
catch up real soon.

5:35 PMsecret`told

so this make me smiled.
you guys never failed to be by my side.
thanks.

2:02 PMsecret`told

6th december2006
you'll always be remembered.

yours dearest
granddotter.

8:53 PMsecret`told

x'mas approaching..

dear santa,
i wish for somethi

unforgettable

unpredictable

and somethi got to do with roses.=)

6:56 PMsecret`told

motive of drawing all this
was actually making a book.
with us as the characters and our story,
for his 21st birthday present.
but guess it's no longer needed.
i still remember how his reaction was
i send him this although did'nt told him what was that for.
but he simply show no interest.

i'm still missing those late night calls.
irritation and so..
but guess i'll get used soon.
being sad will be the last thing i'll do for him.*smiles.
alright then..
is time to start working.

6:37 PMsecret`told

he did'nt gave me any answer
but i take the answer as her*
alrights,the game is officially over.
neverless thanks for those memories.*treasured
i'll take a break no more relationship for the moment.
somethi i got to emphasize
stop matchmaking and introducing ppl.
i've eyes to look for myself.
it might be good intention but i hate it.
take note.

10:34 PMsecret`told

a very special dream came true with the word"i do"

2:21 AMsecret`told

i'm sick durin prom night.
took 300++ pictures
alrights uploaded some=)
i'm missing my secondary school life...

he*
decided to make things reali clear.
it took me long enough to realise,
i can't carry on being a follower.
so i told him in 3days time tell me an answer.
M E or H E R.
actually the answer is more or less expected.

7:13 AMsecret`told

meeting princess diana.
someone praise her.
she hasn't got her heels.
sooooo...
is shopping time again.

2:38 PMsecret`told

he's suppose to come down and fetch me from jack's pub today
then again another broken promise.
but well i'm just so used to it.
he claimed that he's sick.
alrights,he's really sick.
am i angry?
alrights pretty...

get well soon boy~

11:39 PMsecret`told

busy preparing for prom..
buying this and that this and that.
but how pretty can one get when she is sick.
god damn.
i think i'm treating him differently.
as i said i'm demanding for more.
flaring as and when..
but haven i done enough?
this is the way i'm taking and that got to be the right way.

11:32 PMsecret`told

he came,we witness this sunrise together.

pretty isn't it?

heart to heart talk.

his unsure,his troubles,his worries,his doubts

i'm so sure of my path ahead now.

5:20 PMsecret`told

feeling damn uncomfortable now,
shopping with jere at town again,
then head straight to jack's pub
alright just came back from there anyway.
mr lewis drove us back.
everything turns out well *smiles.
met up with anne too.

i beileve
i trust
i'm just waiting for the call.
will this be another disappointment?

4:18 AMsecret`told

8more days to prom night.
and i'm sick...

2:50 PMsecret`told

tension building everywhere
is it me or others?
i'm just not happy with how things are now.
well but my emo period is over.
i'm gonna live my life the way it is.
the way i love,that's me for the moment.
selfish you cld say,but i don't give a damn.

10:24 PMsecret`told

so i ended up meeting the monkeys,slacking at jere house.

making whole lots of noise,the usual disturbing and crapping,oh man that's my life!i just love it this way..sooOooo nice.
bought lewis his snowcap as promise,and tht's him cheeky look huh.
last paper tomorrow LALALALA..=)
alrights,ter was nice he wanted to teach me science.
so he called and nag and spot check if im studyin.
ther's still nice ppl ard me.*SMILES.

6:24 PMsecret`told

Happy 21st Birthday Jason Bro~
what about this guy.
he's my brother best bestie.
which is equal to my brother,and why?
he watch me grow from a little imp to a lady
he've seen the ugliest side of me,just wakie from bed*ha
he nags about my boyfriends
he can't wait to introduce boys to me *pls bro stop it.
he nags about my result
he nags about me coming home late
many many more..
but so many unknown,should i go?

jack took over cupid.
so painting starts today.
it'll be darn fun but i'm not gonna paint but sit ther like a tai tai~
so what's the use of going down?
not helping but creating trouble *luffs.
so i've got 4 choices

jason bday chalet

painting at bq

grannie house

packing my room..

2:34 PMsecret`told

so out with jere again
vivo just literally sucks.
so we headed to bugis.
shopping..
he was shopping for his clothes too.
and back to usual place jackson.
so jon,jl,jack,diana and another i forgot his name ha*
came down,the guys will drinking as usual.
alrights i'm back to my normal social life.
with jack crappy jokes and everyone starts laughing.
just love it this way~
o's gonna be over,lalalala.

2:49 PMsecret`told

2:53 AMsecret`told

quarrel quarrel and more quarrel..

oh my goodness.

but i'm not gonna be bother anymore.

live life happy and to the fullest vian's motto.*smiles.

everything that goes against my way sorry but *bye.

that's me for now.=)

11:56 PMsecret`told

jessie wissie wissie auntiie *luffs.

10:14 PMsecret`told

alrights i came across this song and it reminded me of somthing that brings a curve on my face,nice song.=)

Kelly Clarkson - The Trouble With Love Is

Ooooohhh…Oooohhhh yaMmmmm
Love can be a many splendid thing
Has another joy you bring
A dozen roses
Diamond rings
Dreams for sale
And fairy tales
It’ll make you hear a symphony
And you’ll just want the world to see
But like a drunk that makes you blind
It’ll fool you every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
Gets stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
Gets stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

Now I was just a once a fool it’s true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world’s a deeper blue
I’m sadder but I’m wiser too
I swore I’d never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn’t worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
Gets stronger then your pride

The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

Every time I turn around
I think I’ve got it all
My heart keeps callin
And I keep on fallin
Over and over again
This set story always ends the same
Me standin in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

The trouble with love is (the trouble with love)
It can tear you up inside (it can tear you up in side)
Make your heart believe a lie (Make your heart believe a lie)
Gets stronger then your pride
(The trouble with love is) See your heart its in your soul
(It doesn’t care how fast you fall) You wont remember control (?)
(And you can’t refuse the call)
See you’ve got no say at all
The trouble with love is (Oooo….ya)
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie (the trouble with love..)

10:18 PMsecret`told

he's having his exam now not wise to break any news at the moment.
alrights not that i've any.
i'm gonna get myself busy with work soon.
and those promise dates.
that should be able to keep me tired and into dreamland.
i suppose that's enough for the moment.

alrights out again tomorrow..

10:11 PMsecret`told

busy buzzyy

i'll be out today,
tomorrow,
tomorrowtomorrow,
tomorrowtomorrowtomorrow,
tomorrowtomorrowtomorrowtomorrow..
and rest on a sunday.
busy busy busy..

alrights and so this particular person msg me in friendster,the most creative message ever,oh please get a life sir.
and it goes like this..

4:27 PMsecret`told

and that's us,i'm not fully recover from my "shagperiodfromO'syet"look how o's can make a person so damn freaking ugly~
alrights so accompany cindy to shop for gown.
i spotted this cloth and i bought it.lalala
still don't know which gown to wear for prom.

and...

guess what i saw leonard and ahbert.
ha,anyway he message me in the morning..
and we'll talking about it already.
yae,he still looks the same.
he "HOI!" damn loud and i'm still in blurness state.*faints.

one more paper down *smiles.

i was on phone with all my monkeys yesterday.

jonathan was nagging.so long never come down already blablabla...

jere was nagging you everytime put me plane blablabla.

lewis and robin was booking in so short conversation only..

11:17 PMsecret`told

had a good night sleep yesterday...
after hanging up the phone
it brings a smile,much crapping thou.*luffs.

what a great day to start with

a morning message.

a great breakfast.

loves

got some lecturing from my beloved`lecturer MS DIANA,
hmph.i shall reveal part on the content.so she said this...
He who is said to be so in love with is actually with another girl who he's not in love with.
He who is said to love you can't leave her for some dumb reason.
He who is said to love you can't even have meet up with you.
He who is said to love you can't even come down when you need help.
He who is said to love you can't understand you.
I just don't beileve those dumb excuses he's always giving.
come on vian,give up and move on..

so i was in deep thots.
i really am lost!
haiz.so if i'm ever leaving..
i'll leave in silence and not make a big huha with him anymore.
like i'm leaving and telling him nots.
cause probably it just my way of making him treating me better and leave that girl.
bitch huh?
but that was the past,
i'm not gonna repeat it anymore.
but yae her words are still in my head.

2:14 PMsecret`told

this gonna be a long entry..

O's Level..
2more papers to go and o's will be officially over.
gosh,i don't even have that damn feeling that the race is about to end,
but instead i feel as thou i've just started.
well well..
i doubt i could even make it.*sign.
i'll be so bless if i did.

Grandpa..
haven't been seeing him for so long,
vian's missing you grandpa.

Him..
alrights what about him..
people are asking "have you got over him,don't be silly"
i've been thinking how? why? and questions start to flood.
i'm having doubts,uncountable ones...
was that a lie or just coincidence?
probably that's why i got so distracted..
yes,he's treating me better compared.
but i don't know why i'm feeling worse.
and i know if this carry on..
i'll demand for more.
i'm lost so lost,tell me what should i do?
probably i should just leave.
times and again said but undone,why?
cause i can't bare too.
i'm just so use to him getting involve with my life
but...everybody just gotta move on in life *sign

we shall see how things goes.
or probably i'm taking away his privillage card.
but i know he would rather me to leave than not giving him any privillages.
rite boy?

6:49 PMsecret`told

dearest Army Boy..
mr lewis is in army already.
manage to squeeze some of my time for him that day,
had supper the day before he went in.
think he was feeling pretty emo that day..
message me some stuff that you could never see this monkey getting all so serious.touch perhaps.*luffs.
it goes something like this.."...so many good friends.."
alright so he called me when he was inside
Lewis :"army life sucks,i do things that i never do outside`DOGS!"
Vianni :"but well, all guys go through this to be a man,boy."
i'm gonna get you your snowcap as promise k=) *winks.

beloved `Monkeys..
thanks for being there always
before my o's even ended i'm missing them already.
owe shopping dates with mr robin and...
owe 7days of dating with mr jere and..
mr jon,how's malaysia trip planning coming up?

i'll meet up with you guys real soon..

Prompie Prom Night..Weddings..
pretty dresses
high stiletto heels
styled hair
nails in glam
dollie facie
PRETTY GIRL`here i comee..

Jobs..
i'm working `sales line-perfume..
or probably back to canon..
interview on 22nd.

Meet up..
i'll be meeting up with all the long promises too.
i'm sorry for the delay..
and thanks for the wishes ppl.
much love =)

tellmey o uloveme`showmey o ureallycare,leadmethewaywould y o u?

6:47 PMsecret`told

i'll be off to study,back 3weeks later..


no more msn
no more breakfast
no more supper
no more outing

no phone calls will be entertain
drop me a message or so if it's darn important.=)

missing in action for 3weeks...



BUT,i'll be back.=)
so miss me*luffs.

11:38 AMsecret`told

Nov 1st - 'O' Level Art Paper2

Nov 2nd - 'O' Level Literature in English Paper 1

Nov 6th - 'O' Level Mathematics Paper 1, Social Studies

Nov 7th - 'O' Level Chemistry/Biology Paper2

Nov 8th - 'O' Level English Paper 1 & 2

Nov 9th - 'O' Level Geography

Nov 10th - 'O' Level Mathematics Paper 2

Nov 13th - 'O' Level Literature in English Paper 2

Nov 20th - 'O' Level Chemistry & Biology MCQ Paper 3

11:36 AMsecret`told

no more outie,except monday
cause i'll be collecting my lovely gown.*grins
i've this crazy obsession with gowns now.
i just bought another one.*GOSH
left one more week.
well i doubt this will work out
but miracle could happen in one week.
but then again..
i might not make it.
but too bad..
i just got to face the consequences
for enjoying too much.
anyway i just screwed my pratical on thurs.
damn it.

6:30 PMsecret`told

i've got this strange feeling.
seems like something is missing
or i'm gonna lose something.
is not anyone fault
or perhaps is my.
well as what mr jon said
time will prove it all girl.~

9:39 PMsecret`told

i'm having breathing difficultly
gasping for air kind of?
the same feeling as thou..
i'm gonna suffer from an asthma attack soon.
all thanks to mr haze.
agh.

i was reading cindy's blog.
some conflicts between she and doug.
well i really admired her for what she said.
you rock girl.

CINDY :
but frm my point of view is that since i dont trust him,
theres no point asking.is like even if he were to xplain,
i would take it as excuse.another thing is,
i dont wanna be some irratating gf,
going ard checking my bf's phone,
asking who's this girl who just called,
why u this why u that...
its just so irratating and theres seriously no trust.

9:19 PMsecret`told

i'm not that important afterall.

be selfish that's what i've learnt.

i don't worth that much.

i swear i'll make you regret for what you've did

no doubt.

i'm back to my old self

domineering,attitude,demanding

and the list goes on..

and a new pointer *selfish

you taught me that.=)

after that promise.

sorry but game over.

2:34 PMsecret`told

all shag
but i accompany *him through the night
why?
cause he's sick.
but where is he..
when im sick?
he's not the one that's around
definitely not him.
hey,i'm so tired.


when people say i deserve much better, i always smile it away.what more could i say?

12:47 PMsecret`told

my itchy hand got this started..

9:15 PMsecret`told

afterall i dont look that bad without makeup

do i? *luffs.

8:58 PMsecret`told

8:55 PMsecret`told

chocolates

coke

and i started dreaming..

i just realise
that im making too many empty promises
hardly fullfilled.
be it myself or friends.
the story goes on... ... ... ...

i've been rejecting dates
due to my beloved o's
is not that i've started..
but i just feel guilty going out.

monkeys just got back from malaysia.
meaning mr lewis is going army in a few days time.
and i cant afford to lose any time not even a simple farewell dinner.
alrights i know i'm bad.
but i'll make up for it after my o's,no doubt.

hey guys,i can't wait for o's to end.
it just sucks.agh

8:23 PMsecret`told

b r e a k f a s t

s h o p p i n g

s m i l e s.

alrights headed to town
it's been long since i had such a great breakfast with someone.
i was shopping for gowns..

bought a top from chaos,
guess what i left it in the ladies.
forgotten all aboout it.
5minutes later it's all gone.
nah,just my luck.
i'm dead tired now,hardly could move man.
but overall great day i had.
thanks =)

11:02 PMsecret`told

when i run away from you
chase me
when i pout my lips
kiss me
when i kick and punch
hold me tight
when i call you a loser
just admit it
when i ignore you
i want all your attention
when i pull away
grab me by the waist
when you see me at my worst
tell me i'm beautiful
when i scream at you
tell me you love me
if i don't call you
i'm waiting for you to call me
when i'm scared
hold me tight, tell me everything will be over soon.

jewellery that flare during special occasion only?

8:59 AMsecret`told

if god give me a wish
i wish i could die now
what a fuck tub life.
can i just sleep my life away?
i seems so drifted from everyone.
i feel weird so weird
like as if im an ailen from outer space
so tired so so tired...

10:27 PMsecret`told

6:40 AMsecret`told

6:38 AMsecret`told

i was waiting for my god damn irritating hair to dry
before my beauty sleep.
meanwhile i was reading those previous entries.
pretty stupid thou..
i was typing liKe tHis sOrt Of..
crazy me.
those were the days..

1:03 PMsecret`told

god is fair.
so turn off.

6:37 AMsecret`told

n i g h t m a r e
give me my softiee..

3:56 AMsecret`told

i can't stand the haze
it's killin me
irritates my eyes.
YES,
is that bad.

i know what i'm doing
i know what's happening
i know is time to get focus
i know i can't hide
i know that's truth

but then again..

i can't be bother
i choose not to be bother
i don't want to be bother
leave me alone.
is time to be focus
study time~

6:05 AMsecret`told

art art and art...
i'm still struggling with prep work*goodness.
im not least started with studyin yet.
fcuk it man.
im only left with 3more weeks..
i must get stared.
I MUST I MUST I MUST.

and i came into a conclusion that guys are simply not so simple and they are untrustable.
oh my damn god shit.

6:15 PMsecret`told

i don’t deserve such shit from you people man god damn sick
maybe i’m at fault but i don’t think so.
and i don’t think i owe any explaintation
the usual me i always thinks that im right
can’t stand me?
fuck off then.

7:19 AMsecret`told

my first day out with my shoeis today
i dont know why but i just feel so damn proud*grins.
alrights,ive 3 people wanting to get my sheoeis already.
29per pair.*SMILES
but i only can get started after my o's.

i went back to grannie house..
aunt said that grandpa has been calling my name in his dreams..
mistaken daring for me,*vivian vivian,come...
he has been seeing things too..
hmm sad isn't it.

i must get myself moving.
i seems so stuck~
haiz.

if you don't wanna help yourself,i can't help you either.*i don't care if you hate me for what i did,it doesnt matter.

10:41 PMsecret`told

probably he's just the one.

6:41 PMsecret`told

shopppping..
i top up my candies and chocolate corner.
i got stuffs i need for art.
i think i'm crazy or something.*luffs.
i bought different kinda of shampoo.
trying to come to a conclusion which is better.
alrights so far i've used..
sunsilk,dove,herbal essence and vs sasoon..
i think herbal essence is not bad.*luffs.

i realised i've been making empty promises.
i'm really neglecting my friends,*monkey especially.
sorry to jere especially.
yes,i'm ms plane queen always.=P
i'm just to busy juggling with school and home.
really tiring to run back and forth to grannie place.
i'm not just physically tired but mentally drained out too.
hopefully all this will end so soon.
grandpa is getting better *SMILES

alrights i'll end of with some entertainment stuff...


leonard show me this.. is damn bloody lame and funny man.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JRBo4ncMROE
AND
leeping show me this..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=94SZYWYQc9A

11:15 AMsecret`told

i bought a blank shoeis..
and drew some stuff on it
TADAHHHhhHHhHHHh..

12:17 AMsecret`told

it's been 25hours since my beauty sleep.
was on the phone with ms diana till morning
some crazy idea stike me to meet her.
alrights had breakfast together.
after which went to her house to laze.
saw her art piece, is nice BUT I WAS DAMN SHOCK!
ms princess if you ever read this...
YOUR ART ISH FAR BEHIND,gosh please ...
oh and where am i..
i've finish my course work!YOOUUUUWHHHHOOOO..
now is time to chiong prep work..

alrights headed to grannie house
bought bean curd for grandpa,
and home sweet home
i'm dead tired now.

12:35 PMsecret`told

alrights been dropping tears now and then,
that's not the vian people knew.
i'm getting so emo.WHYWHYWHY
the inner side of me has finally surface after so long.
grandpa is realli ill.
but one got to face the fact..
that your beloved ones will leave you one day.
whatever it is i'll treasure him as long as he is alive.
i'll be a strong girl ..i'm to strong to fall.
i love `my beloved grandpa.*smiles

yes,he's losin his memory.
not remembering his love ones.
but guess what! he remember me.
or probably cause i'm the naughtiest in the family ha.

i bought pumkin cakes for him the other day
panda cake for him yesterday
carrot cake for him today.
ohhh and i massaged his legs.=)
hmm..what should i get for him tomorrow?
any suggestion? somethi realli soft..
hmmmm..


whatever will happen will happen,everyone got to face death someday.i'll be strong.

11:43 PMsecret`told

ORIGINAL.
kiss slowly,
love deeply,
forgive quickly
life is too short for you to be dissappointed any longer
EDITED.
kiss slowly but why love deeply,
forget quickly
life ish too short for you to be disappointed any longer.=)

3:52 AMsecret`told

i'm angry
i'm sad
i'm getting so emo ..

grandpa is getting from bad to worse..
i'm so lost now..so lost.
but i know grandpa wants me to be strong.
whatever is goin to happen..
i know i know that i need to complete grandpa last wish
to finish my race.
i know i will.
a promise to you, my dearest grandpa.

8:32 PMsecret`told

i feel so stressed up.
i might be smiling
but then again i'm not happy,
not at all.
i was thinking thru those evils deeds i did in the past.
i feel so mean so so mean.
but i'm still like this now i guess.
example:when i hate someone that person will nv escape my evil mouth.
alrights,
i'm getting a little emo now.
leave me alone for the time being.

where's she,where's she,where's this beautiful girl.

9:10 PMsecret`told

my darling ish reaching out for her so called stars*goodness.

4:08 PMsecret`told

11:39 PMsecret`told

CRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMPPPSSSSSS...mommmmii..

10:44 PMsecret`told

all i could do was to close my eyes
and wish that the slow song would never end.
but somehow it did..
and even faster that i expected.

11:01 AMsecret`told

tomorrow is monday again!
WHAT THE HELL !
WHAT THE HELL!!
WHAT THE HELL!!!

11:38 PMsecret`told

i'm missing

alrights met mel earlier..
she came to fetch me and we headed to town.
S H O P P I N G =)
we went marche instead..met the guys ther..
2girls and 6guys. how nice..
great day i had.
it's been long since i had a great laugh...
crapping and laughing our way through.
it feels good seeing those familiar faces again.
hmm.. i'm really missing those days at work...
oh ya mel's getting married and we're invited =)

alrights stay over at grannie house again.
i cooked dinner tonight *grins
having fun cooking without having to clear up the mess.*how nice.
having the thot?OMG VIAN COOK?
yes i cook alrights!
sample it if u're lucky enough=)

12:32 AMsecret`told

bbq change to dinner*swensen at town.
im gonna see my beloved colleague in 7.5 hours time.
i can imgine what's gonna happen later..
we'll be reminiscing about times at pc show.
oh man..i'm really missing those days at work!

vian's back smiling again=)

12:05 PMsecret`told

i was in the lift with the same boy again
such a coincidence isn't it.
what's so special about him is..
i think he resemble jere.=)

too many things are happening..
and i know i can't take it any longer..
just putting a fake smile.
but well that's me.

"It's better to fight for something than live for nothing."

12:01 AMsecret`told

1:51 PMsecret`told

naughty little girl
i've been getting from bad to worse.
firstly not studying mid-year.
secondly not studyin prelim.
thirdly not attending prelim.

and..
now i'm feeling a little sick.
slight flu..omg!

1:47 PMsecret`told

i've been going down to grannie place now and then.
i was with grandpa the whole day.
till 1030,dad came and i was goin home.
i told him,i saw the tears in his eye.
guess what i don't know why but my tears started to ...

i'm really scared that one day he might just leave the world..

11:36 PMsecret`told

i'm not going to talk about him* here till my o's end,i swear and i promise.

11:16 PMsecret`told

NO SCHOOL,but it does'nt seems to make a difference
slept at 1am,
princess was asking me to accompany her online.
he came to talk to me yesterday.
asking me how's life?
telling me to take care.
and he told me he misses me=)
alrights i miss you too.
i was about to type how's life..
then again i told myself NO~
so i didn't reply,anyway he told me not to.
he's not prepared to come back,not at all.
seems like my words fall on deaf ears.
i said:if i ever receive his call,msg,msn i'll take it that he's coming back.

alrights,
i was dead tired then already.
i woke up at 6am in the morning again!
healthy lifestyle isn't it?*smiles.

6:39 AMsecret`told

it is 6.10am now
healthy lifestyle as i said.
i saw this is some unknown blog..
pretty lianish,but meaningful i guess.

never say "ilu"
if you don't really care
never talk about feelings
if they aren't there
never hold my hand
if you meant to break my heart
never say forever
if you plan to part
never look into my eyes
if you're telling a lie
never say i'm the one
if you're dreaming of another
never lock my heart
if you can't unlock it

6:14 AMsecret`told

grandma and grandpa's house,kids spoilt here.

there's this quotation at grannie place
that bro bought long ago.
it's hell true.
you get pampered like some little princess.

i lead a healthy lifestyle here

eating my 3meals regularly
sleeping at 10pm and waking up at 9am.

8:39 PMsecret`told

i received a mysterious message from nicolas
after a period of time he went MIA.*girns
was messaging then i realise i'm late
till then i forgot all about him
so i did'nt reply till now.=)

in the mrt heading towards town..
guess who i saw..desmond? *luffs.
alrights then met ms princcess at orchard mrt.
as usual shopping then went for facial.
and our day ended.

alrights went home,packed some stuff
and headed to grannie place.
stayed over..
as i miss my `beloved grandpa *smiles

he's online now and i miss him so damn much.
i was questioning myself..
if he felt the same ?
is he missing me as much ?
i've the urge to click but i told myself "no..
even if, that will be after o's.
or maybe after o's i've a change of heart?
who knows what will really happen.
till then my promise for him should had already ended.
and maybe that's when i'll be really leaving.
cause he said "girls and boys can never be good friend"
well i don't think so ..
cause i've many.
but i'm really wondering how is he coping at the another end.
is that girl giving him any more problems?
or have they become love birds?
then again..
he's stonger than me.
he don't need me to be there ,i suppose.

9:52 PMsecret`told

i was doing art in school today.
hell lots of stuffs to carry home.
jack's nice,he send me home =)
a little bit more,just a little bit more...
and i'll be done.

i went back to grannie house.
grandpa is dead sick.
he looks weak,
and he's losin weight...

please lord,don't take him away from me...

8:00 PMsecret`told

papers after papers i took
and i know nuts about what i've written on those papers.
crapping my way through i suppose.

pau and pui have been mean this mrng.
they say evil things to *
i heard it*luffs.

i wonder why people could be so happily in love,
while me,always ended wounded.
i saw those smiles.
friends around me seems so =)..
then again what abt me?
my eyes must be crossed(X.X)that i could never pick the right guy in my life?
so tired.. so tired of relationship that i don't wish to attempt anymore.
is either the boy i love never seems to be my or..
those boys that love me never attract me at all,
that i don't even wish to steal a glance at them..
but all in all..
i suppose i've learn my lesson after 2fall.
not to take relationship to seriously.

i wonder how's life over at the another end.
then again,i doubt i should bother.

i missed those star gazing nights

10:23 PMsecret`told

some lame stuff,just for entertainment purpose.
adapted from cindy's blog.

Qn: Why is fish cunning ?
Ans: cos yu pian mi fen (fish lie to bee hoon)

Qn: What animal falls down the most?
Ans: Fox, cos they jiao hua (cunning)

Qn: Xiao ming drinks milk to grow up, Da ming drinks what?
Ans: Da ming drink wine, cos Jiu Yang Da Ming

Qn: Which chinese host does not have centre parting?
Ans: wu zong xian (no centre line)

Qn: Why Zhou Jie Lun Cross the Street Kana fine by police?
Ans: Cos Jay Walking

Qn:Which emperor (huang di) is blind??
Ans: Kang xi (Can't see)

Qn: How does a fish laugh?
Ans: HE HE HE (in hokien)

Qn: How does a prawn laugh?
Ans: HEI HEI HEI (in hokien)

Qn: Why baby don't need to brush teeth?
Ans: cos bei bi wu chi

Qn: Which button on your keyboard cannot sing?
Ans: F4

10:09 PMsecret`told

end of sept holidays,
back to old school days,
prelim had officialy started.
the feeling of going into exam hall not knowing a single shit
just literally sucks.
but a relieve to say that my art is finishing soon.

i'm putting on weight.
having supper almost every night*hell it.
kfc,mac,pizzahut,dianxin,desert,smoothie.!!*hmm..
time to keep track cause..
i want to be a PRETTY GIRL!!!*smiles.

i think i'm gonna have a change of password soon..
why?
cause vian feel like it.
ask from me if you want it,or be that smart ass to guess it.=)
if you know me well enough,should be able to *luffs.

have i already give up or am i still waiting?

11:04 PMsecret`told

9:12 PMsecret`told

neoprints



crazy little girls *spot that lil imp.

i was out with my princess and manda.
really crazy day we had.

eHhhhhhHHhhhHh!!
i heard this,loud and clear.
i turned back and i realised..
i'm really missing him*.
but i'm tring my best to distract myself.
getting used,without him.
hopefully as days goes by..

alrights many incidents that got us so pissed.
ohh there's one thing i must say.
please get a life guys,*smiles.

then i'm out in the night again..

5:04 AMsecret`told

i'm out for supper last night.
nice night i have,
it really did brings a smile.
then again thanks.=)

i love you but i shouldn't.
i'd tell you but i couldn't.
i'm the only one who will ever know.
so on with my life i'll try to go.
i'll try to ignore the sick feeling i get when you're away.
and not to hang on every word i hear you say.
no longer will i let your smile melt me to the core.
when your eyes meet mine, i won't blush anymore.
is time to end this.

3:43 PMsecret`told

this is freaky,something funny too.*luffs.

Jeremy.t told me this..
Take things with open stride. Failure is success's Bad Mummy. says:
how is it
t hought s. says:
wad thing how?
Take things with open stride. Failure is success's Bad Mummy. says:
bring u out la.
Take things with open stride. Failure is success's Bad Mummy. says:
but is bike huh
Yihao told me this...
HaOGsR says:
i see.. hai.. i tot of riding around today
t hought s. says:
i don't like to ride bike.

i told both of them and copy and paste each other conversation to another.then again,is this the sudden trench at tis hour? lol
what's freaky is they type the same thing almost at the same time!omg,lol.
then..

Jeremy.t told me this..
Take things with open stride. Failure is success's Bad Mummy. says:
so u goin out with them lo..
Yihao told me this...
HaOGsR says:
u go with him lor

9:22 PMsecret`told

he called me last night,
only after 2days,8.28pm.
what's the purpose?
i was overjoyed yet shock.
the blinking light and the overwhelming music...
i saw how it faded.
2missed calls..

i was afraid that history might repeat,
give those calls a missed.
friends,i meant what i said.
i'm leaving,i'm moving on.
but i need time.

den again what was the call for?
explaination?reasoning?or..?
i'm curious,but i'm sure he isn't prepared to come back yet.
i gave you a choice,you choose to ignore it.
don't come back till you're really prepared.

lead me not into temptation,please

3:17 PMsecret`told

i hang up princess phone..
cause im feeling the kick.
is been 35hours since my last beauty sleep.
but then again.
how i wish someone could knock me hard in the head.
i just can't fall asleep.
till early morning..

i don need the sympathy
i just wish to be alone
ill be fine after which
then i told myself :i'm strong to strong to fall.

3:21 PMsecret`told

after sleepless night.. *spot tht eyebag.
and we called my new friend*pinkie.


neoprints...

i'm feeling rather down still,
but someone gotta leave.
i didn't sleep and i went shopping with my princess.
i'm dead tired now..
anyway she simply rocks my day to max.
ilu*bitch.

we went crazy and yes i think i was crazy for a moment.
moody,crazy,moody,crazy.
my mood really swing.
we shop like money simply drop from the sky,
or our dad owns a printing money shop.

i spent ard 200 bucks
simply on zara,charles&keith,neoprint and food.
but it simply brings a curve on my face.
shopping,neverless gurls best fren.=)

12:31 AMsecret`told

i'm getting a little emo now,
i'm being heartless here yet i'm complaining.
what a bitch i'm.
with my princess consoling me in msn asking me to move on.
telling me facts,explaining to me what's right from wrong.
yes indeed i've woken up from my dream,
a world that i manipulate all this while
i've put to a stop,a real stop.

it bothers me so much,
felt so lost and empty within.
harping on to something that's never seems to be my.
hoping someday dreams becoming reality.
but before that could actually happen.
i felt like i had no other choice,and i'm leaving.
it doesn't hurts to dream but it hurts more to wake up.

lets recall..

chapter 1
6years ago,
how we actually started talking on phone.
i was young and naive then.
i found him pretty irritating,pestering me all day long.

chapter 2
then i started to notice him.
we became good friend,
someone that i can really turned too.
we exchanged troubles,
he's like an elder brother to me.
we grew closer as each day passes.

chapter 3
then i was in love.
we were off contact den.
and back after is over.

chapter 4
after my n's i started to work ,
and we got even closer.
i still remember the day when he came all the way down..
just to had lunch with me,
it brings a smile really

chapter 5
we started meeting each other pretty often.
till then i think he was a nice bro?
that pampers little sister.
even though i knew that he's in love with me.
i don't feel much of a chemistry then.
and i told him is impossible.

chapter 6
time passes..
i realised i'm falling for him
for no particular reason

chapter 7
another day out basically..
he just grabbed my hand,
i was shock really shock kind of.
till then i think he was aware that yes i'm falling for him.
but i pushed his hand away.

chapter 8
i told him is not an easy task.
10wishes before i'm yours.

chapter 9
06.01.06 my baby boy is my.

chapter 10
the first major quarrel that tore us apart.
his ex phone call,a nightmare to me.
that girl demanded an answer from him when he was driving..
asking where was he and with?
guess what he answered?
i'm with my friend.
my heart shattered,it hurts,it hurts so badly
that my mind when blank.

chapter 11
we quarrelled and guess what he told me?
him: i told her that because i don't wished to quarrel with her.
then again boy,what about me?
did you even bother how i feel at that moment?
so you do have the intention of quarrelling with me don't you?
him:you are my gf you should understand.
fcuk is the word,kindly put yourself in my shoe,
it does'nt make sense.
i think you'll go crazy for god sake.

chapter 12
quarrel quarrel and more quarrel..

chapter 13
he told me that she* wants to commit suicide.
it seems a lie,or rather i thinks is a lie.
asking me how.
i told him this.
don't ask me how,you already got your answer don't you?
then please go ahead.

chapter 14
we broke off.

chapter 15
still friends and slowly we're acting back like couples.
and he got sour when i'm close to any guys.

chapter 16
things got pretty draggie...
he told me he still love me and not her,
it just a responsibility towards her.
i choose to deceive myself and believe whatever he said.
but till now, what's the truth?

chapter 17
he came down on my birthday
and celebrated that very special day with me..
but it was rather disappointing,
he don't seems to get what i really want. ..
had a long conversation that night,just sorting things out.

chapter 18
this triangle relationship carries on..
i'm hearing the same old things over and over again.
i'm starting to get tired really tired.
with all my friends going against what i'm doing make me more frustrated.
i just needed someone to support me?
not even my cloest friends agree with what i'm doing.
den again ..
i tried to wake myself up from my dream
but it did'nt quite help.

chapter 19
i came to know his friend
and he got pretty anxious.
he admitted it.=)

chapter 20
he came down,yes he kept his promise.
but then again, 2hour?
might as well not.
i'm pissed really pissed.

chapter 21
i ended this with a message.
i told him not to reply.
is either he really respected my decision
or he literally cannot be bother
that losing me does'nt seems to matter at all.
no reply.

chapter 22
i'm struggling hard.
it hit me badly,real badly.
and it hurts so much that i never know that he's actually that important in my life.
that i lose my interest in everything.
but then again,i did'nt blame him for that.
it just me being stupid holdin on.
and probaly i deserve it.

i guess everybody saw it coming,i'm dumb too dumb.
i'm just fooling myself.
or should i say i'm not even me.
the attitude girl,i used to be..
that everyone just got to give way.
but let's take it as a lesson learnt.

it took me long enough to wake up.
eventually,it's gonna fade with time,i know i gonna be fine after that.

.....if only our ending will be a perfect one? or maybe in the near future.
i'm hoping,but then again will history repeat?
i'm scared so scared of falling again.
but i'll keep my promise to you.
if you're ever coming back.. i don't wish to be hurt again.=)

4:06 AMsecret`told

alrights what about yesterday..
i did'nt really sleep,
thinkin hard and i came to a decision.
i shall walk away without turnin back.

i'm quite sure about this.
it's been a really draggie one.
yes i'm being very heartless here.
but i'm just tired too tired to hold on anymore.
that i would rather fall and hurt myself for once.
and yes i'm missin him lyk fuck now.
but no,no more turnin back.
time heals all wound i guess.=)
if you ever read this :i'm sorry.


went to pc fair again with bro,
guess what he bought me a imac!!!
best bro ever,ilovehimtoMAX.

den went down with xt to jon house.
and i told xt this:please drive as fast as u can.
which normally ill ask him not to.
but it feels good when u're in a bad mood.
we slack our day ther. went for supper with jere.
after which home sweet home.

my princess said :in life you just gotta make choices.

3:52 PMsecret`told

HOW I WISH
how i wish time would stop for us.
how i wish he's still my.
how i wish i'm greeted every morning by my love ones.
how i wish i'm driving.
how i wish i'm still young.
how i wish i'm done with my o's.
how i wish i'm still working.
how i wish i could forward or turn back the time.
how i wish i could get what i want.
how i wish i could open a candy shop.
how i wish i don't have to face the books anymore.
how i wish my house will be flooded with roses and sweets always.
how i wish granpa's health condition will improve
how i wish i wasn't born.

2:31 PMsecret`told

suppose plans today and it seems little dumb.

suppose to go get my art stuff with jon *
suppose to meet terence/monkeys at night*
suppose to have dinner with francis and jeremy after show*
suppose to go back to grannie house*

then again ..
i ended up
afternoon: tourin round spore with jack..
evening: meetin diana at night for pc show
night: ended with coyl,max and another lady.=)

let fate decide,where our story will end.
i'm tired really really tired,
i'm sorry, but i can't hold on anymore.
lets part our way.
in this world people can't have many choices.
but just one.=)

1:27 AMsecret`told

mrjon,took 2day mc.
suppose to be out with him on friday and the other monkeys.
but then again, i think ...
alrights then
mrlewis got his car licence
and pls boy STOP SHOWIN OFF.*luffs.

i've been a real naughty girl recently.
what more,i didn't attend school the whole week.
i'm sorry girl,i didn't attend school,as promise.

i don't know what i reali want,can you tell me instead?
i'm smiling,den again,how long can this last?
i'm tired rreeaaaaallly reaaaaalllly tired.
how about you?
aren't you tired too?
i bet you are and is this the best way out?
well i doubt so...

4:27 PMsecret`told

I'MJUSTSOFUCKINPISSEDOFF,JUSTFUCKOFFANDGETOUTOFMYSIGHTPLEASE!!!!!!!!

den again young lady please maintain your language.

4:17 PMsecret`told

i'm so in LOVE with red.

10:20 PMsecret`told

went to get more art stuff again..
den shoppin shoppin and more shoppin!!!
i got my guess bag!!*grins.
and some tee.
alrights was ask to go to jack's house for majong section..
BUT NONO..shoppin's nicer.=)

8:45 PMsecret`told

eng oral was fine,
but i screwed todae pratical up.
well i can't be bother.
the time now ish 7.32pm.
and i really need a nap.
i'm freakinly hell tired man.
maybe i'll give my monkeys a call fer supper later.=)

i'll be rushin my art for the next few days..
or maybe weeks.
so i'll probably be missin for a period of time=)
nights ppl~ *yawn.

7:37 PMsecret`told

alrights went back to bugis yst to get some papers for art..

as usual shop ard..and i spotted a guess bag!!!

and i'm gonna get it lol=)

8:20 PMsecret`told

10:11 PMsecret`told

we: she's not worth it.
him: no,i'll wait.
the tears in his eyes,wen she left him..i saw it.
is tis the kinda of guy we girls r hopin for?
well it makes me stood still and ponder for a minute.
lookin back at my life,
and see wad kinda of guys did i actually get in the past.
2words:bad guys.

7:14 PMsecret`told

Happy Birthday WL

thanks for being tht mad fren all tis while.
i love u bitch.=)

10:19 AMsecret`told

fancy paperssss..

make a wasted trip down to fancypapers..
and it's closed on sunday,
fuck shit.

so decided to shop at bugis and take neos..not tht nice thou.

11:13 PMsecret`told

alrights another monkeys day out.
went for dinner together as usual..
hmm ambience was nice,dinner was great.
den we started with our usual topic"relationship"
disagree,agree..and we started debatin...yes no no yes...

headed home pretty early.
den out again.

i was just waitin for tht promise call till 7am,but yet you disappoint me once again.how sweet of you=)

3:47 PMsecret`told

chocolates`fondue'cheezycheese,roses`mylove.

6:11 PMsecret`told

wad abt sch?
attendence lyk shit lattely.
is lyk a 2days sch instead of 5.
well i just hate the thot of wakin up early just to attend sch
it just sucks.
wad more i'm still ill.
i'm mentally,physically drainned.

come to tink of it
ppl ard me r havin relationship prob
they seems to turn to me for help.
and i can't do much..
come on bros,
take a step at a time.

oh ya..
i got a a b3 for chinese o's
and distinction for oral=)

7:23 PMsecret`told

don't drown me into your sweet whisperin,i don't wanna fall into another love trap

and yes i'm makin comparison.

7:49 PMsecret`told

sweetie home

i'm back home!!!
stayed over at grannie house for tht weekend..
and i missed home
i was typically rushin my art.
and guess wad i left my beloved charger at home
so pratically no phone for the weekend *faints

met up monkeys,
went to newton for supper..
hmmm..alrights den jere change his batt with my=)
but still it did'nt last long..*luffs.

4:38 PMsecret`told

10:51 PMsecret`told

HappyBirthdaySingapore!
alrights suppose to catch the movie"click"
but i was up late last night,*phone as usual.
so.. i did'nt woke up in time to fullfill my promise.=X

pretty shag but still i dragged myself out of bed and..
headed down to grannie house to attend cousin bdae.
flooded with kids and ppl,
tht u cld hardly even find space to walk
ha,aren't i such a family person *luffs.

received jon phone call askin for a meet up..
BUT i'm too too tired to make a trip down alrd.
sorry guys.

11:36 PMsecret`told

holidays approachin but why aren't i smilin?

10:28 PMsecret`told

i'm ruunin a temperature now and..
NO i can't afford to fall ill now!
coughin,sore throat and irritatin runnin tap flowin.
*GOSH,i'm faintin.

alrights,
and i tink my attendence is reali bad.
lets recall..
last week i attended 2daes
tis week i onli 1dae

4:46 PMsecret`told

i got myself a crazy fren.*luffs.

6:08 PMsecret`told

5:58 PMsecret`told

edited pic for diana..


well my life now..
art arT aRT ART AND ARTTTT.

11:19 PMsecret`told

it seems tht ppl close to me,
aren't tht close animore.
it seems tht ppl nice to me,
aren't tht nice animore.
it seems tht..
it seems tht...
it seems tht....
maybe people changes or izzit me?i did'nt treasure them before?
and i know i can't take it ani longer..
just leave me alone?
fuck off?
and get out of my sight?

sorry,but i'm just feelin down and i can't hide my feelins ani longer.

isn't it sad
when we want seemingly impossble things
and we can't bear
that our dreams are unreachable?

isn't it sad that so few are really happy
and so many
feel like they must pretend to be?

isn't it depessing
when you can't tell anyone
why you feel this way
not even yourself?

isn't it sad
when no one speaks out
and says what's on their mind
for fear of being heard?

isn't it sad that comfort seems a myth?
that reality is so harsh?
that no one understands?

isn't it sad
that there's nothing we can do
to change it?

7:04 PMsecret`told

My`LOVE.

10:12 PMsecret`told

In`themidstOFdarkness.


My`bigbossiesBOSS.

4:13 PMsecret`told

just came back frm bq
with the bunch of monkeys celebrated Mr Cheeky Lewis bdae.
did'nt actually wanna make a trip down,
cause i reali have no more time left..
but i make a exception for him
Happy Birthday Dude.=)

alrights,
came home and started rushin my art again.
NO MORE TIME LEFT!
.eyebag.darkcircles.pimples.i'm saying hello to you again
i can say,i'm FUCKING drained out already
lesson 1:please don't be last min.

3:58 AMsecret`told

My`dreamland
bring me the magic bean and lull me to sleep.

11:49 PMsecret`told

i'm missin you,bro
life seems so quiet without you
well i missed those day wher i hav to yelled at you lyk crazy to let me use the com.
and the stupid face you used to give me
pillow fight we used to had?
now tht u'r in army the house seems so peaceful.
i missed those noises you used to make.
but i've to wait for 15 more days before u'll return home.
how i miss u bro.

6:32 PMsecret`told

i'm tired,give me a break.

wad abt my life lately,
as i say i was busy
busy with lots of stuff.
my art,him,frens..etc..
i was totally drained out

yes,i was attach for a moment,
but we broke off.
i just cant juggle with so much stuff,
and the nos he's givin me

he just dun understand the hectic lifestyle that i lead.
does he realli thinks that he's the only one in my life?
and tht i have to give up my studies and friends because of him?
why can't he understand me and stand by me through my final exams?
and it's really an insult to me when he say he can't feels the love that i have for him.
the hurt in my eyes,did he see it?
but now that each of us have gone on our seperate ways,
it's like a burden being thrown into the sea.
well we parted for gd.=)

sometimes in life we just gotta set our priorities rite.
and relationship is not the prime now...
even thou i don wanna leave but somehow or rather i noe,
sometimes it's better too.
i noe now i have to concentrate on my studies
and is nv too late in gettin back into relationship later.

i'm not afraid of storms for i'm learning how to sail my ship

7:24 PMsecret`told

1.who's the last person in your inbox?
him*

2. sport you did last?
eh..runnin?

3. last movie you watched?
silent hill.

4. what do people first notice when they meet u?
i'm not them?

5. do you like peanut-butter?
nah.

6. do you read comics?
nah.

7. how pretty/handsome is your crush?
ha?

8. do you like earthquakes?
onli nuts love them.*luffs

9. worst nightmare?
wen my love one left me?hmm

10. favourite coffee place?
coffee beans.

11. wanna be happy?
YYYESSS!who don't wan?

12. your current school close friends?
princess diana & wl?

13. most people would describe me as:
attitude prob.=)

14. one thing you hate about yourself?
FATS.

15. vegetable/s you hate?
almost all?

16. do you like to go out on a shopping trip?
YES,definitely.

17. favorite person(s) in the world?
family.*world best*luffs.

18. can you act?
act wad?

19. favourite past time?
S L E E P I N G.=)

20. Are you happy?
not at the moment.

21. favorite song now?
leavin on a jet plane.


22. what time is it now?
11.46am

23. first thing you do when you wake up?
smell my lil pillow *luffs.

24. where are you right now?
home?

25. what are the things you like to do now?
s l e e p.

26. are you ok now?
har?

27. how many drinks before you get really
drunk?
good girls don drink*smiles=)

28. which of the foreign actors do you like right
now?
ehh...

29. what is love to you?
somethi edible perhaps?*luffs.

30. are you missing someone?
yes badly.

11:43 AMsecret`told

i wasn't faithful to my blog.
ha practically i've been busy,
with him,my art,princess diana and wl.=)
and i'm missin my bunch of monkeys.*luffs.

1:22 AMsecret`told

5:59 AMsecret`told

music marathon

can u imagine vian croakin her voice
and dancin in the middle of a shoppin centre*phew.
well just for the sake of the word`fun.
it was a blast wen our class perform.=)
and we were ask for an encore
alrights den headed down to lynn chalet pretty rush thou.

as usual chalet flooded with noises and fun..
shall not elaborate.
saw lele and tong.sweetie pies=p

ok den the story goes lyk tht..
GIRL A actualli brought her silblings down
hmm one 7 and another 9.
den left them ther,sayin tht she's goin to collect clothes fer them.
rite and tht was afternoon and she nv came back till next mrng.
wen all of us were freakin waitin for her to check out.

she came,btw she's a butch.
ok anne ask me go tok to her cause daniel ald veri angry.
quoted by him"a sleepy man ish a angry man" lol.

as all of them noe vian temper super hot.
so i went to meet up with her and started yellin.
den she yell back thinkin tht she alwaes ritee.
abt to wack me up i suppose.
i'm seriously not at an advantage of winnin cause i noe her strength.
after a period of time of yellin.
i got fuckin pissed off and i called anne.
anne den told them tht she actu yelled at me and..
leo got so fuckin pissed off..
and chase after her.
well words to describe her irresponsible SLUT.

5:16 AMsecret`told

my new haircut hmm..*luffs.
alrights i hav holidae frm fri to tues.
how sweet rite =)
so i'm free to have a date ha.
busy week..headin down to lynn chalet later ..

2:53 PMsecret`told

SLEeEeePp.

i didnt freakin sleep the whole night,
and suppose to eat breakfast.
well den ms diana fell into her deep princess sleep.
alrights then ying called.

met up with her,
shop for jason bdae present...
and headed down to the chalet.
well den felt pretti strange and..lil uncomfortable.
well all unknowns*ha.
after the presents and a few smiles=)
we went down to jackson for billard.
met up with jon,xt,lewis,jh,jl and diana
had our supper..
and ms diana headed to my house..

guess wad mommi sae...
"so early and u'r home?tht's strange."
mom cause..
it's been abt 36hours since my last sleep.
*YAWN,is bedtime.=)

"A day without laughter, is a day wasted ...."

1:17 AMsecret`told

i'm movin on..

so much improvement tht i nv knew,
nv noticed tht it cld be tht great.
learn to move on,everyone told me tht.
and i told myself,i wun fall
i'm too strong to fall.
and even if i did,it's not abt how mani times i actuali did.
but is actuali how fast i cld actuali pick myself up
move on and lead life lyk before.

"but still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, i dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for."

5:07 AMsecret`told

disturb?

matchmake?

pairin?

stop it, it just irritates.alrights.

12:13 AMsecret`told

who's late?

alrights we r suppose to meet at 4pm
but in the end ha,we all woke up late..
i mean me and cliff*luffs.
so we ended up meetin at 6pm

alrights me,diana,leonard and cliff.
had our dinner*salmon butter rice ha..yummy.
den followed by shoppin,billard..
ended with movie "silent hill"
and it seriously sucks.

alrights afterall great day.=)

2:16 AMsecret`told

nails in glamour

i got my bonia wallet haha.

alrights mani chalet comin up

jason and lynn chalet,one week after another.

hmmm..

9:51 PMsecret`told

soccer fever

alrights just wen down to lewis new house,
pretti spacious hmm nice=)
watched vcd and ordered pizza hut.

alrights den headed down to watch soccer.
as usual the guys will drinkin.
pretti excitin to watch in grps.
so when they score everyone shouted *GOALLLL..

just got home **shag man.

5:02 AMsecret`told

went down to coach one of the guy frm cannon..
well den headed down to town..
diana,shellen,jere,robin,jl
neverless shoppin day,
not much things for myself but more of presents*ha=)
den we went for supper at geylang
den home sweet home.
till den great day.

heard a bad news,
well my granpa health condition has worsen.
no longer under control.
well,i'm just lost now,
why do bad things happen one after another.
can we replay the story once again?
or can time stop at tis moment?
or wld my fairy-godmother grant me a wish?

i just wan him to be health once again.
i still rmb when i was young he* just love to bring me out
hoppin onto his car spinnin round the world.
and till den my hands will be flooded with candies and chocolates.
BUT NOW...

1:45 AMsecret`told

being a good girl for the past few days,
due to my sickening illness.
could actually hardly get off bed.
not even my favourite past time,lyk tokin on phone?
due to the lost of voice..
lieing,lazyin ard.*proof.
after 3long days of being at home..
ish time to stretch abit and do some shoopppin!!!

althou not fully recovered
BUT still..
haha me and princess diana headed to causeway point.=)
wad a great day after being trapped at home.

1:39 AMsecret`told

i'm sick

the time now ish 9.40pm,
and i'm dread tired.
ish sleepin time.*yawns.

9:40 PMsecret`told

26missed calls

i got 26missed calls frm Mr Jere,
tis evenin..
u rock boi.

wen for supper ard 4am last night?
ha..with jere diana jon and xt.
den home sweet home..

AND THEN.
i'm SICK.
down with fever.flu.cough..agh.

9:27 PMsecret`told

Ronan Keating - The Long Goodbye

I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free (so they say)
But it sure is hard to do
Yeah, it sure is hard to do
And I know they say if they don't come back again
Then it's meant to be (so they say)
But those words ain't pulling me through
Cos I'm still in love with you
I spend each day here waiting for a miracle
But it's just you and me going through the mill(climbin' up a hill)

This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it
All that's happening here is a long goodbye

Sometimes I ask my heart did we really
Give our love a chance (just one more chance)
and I know without a doubt
I turned it inside out
And if we walked away
would make more sense (only self defense)
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try
How long must we keep riding on a carousel
Going round and round and never getting anywhere?(on a wing and prayer)

This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, Let's face it
All that's happening here is the long goodbye

he long goodbye
The long goodbye
This is the long goodbye
Someone please tell me why
Are you ever coming back again
Are you ever coming back again
Are you ever coming back again
Guess I'm never coming back again.

2:47 PMsecret`told

smile,tht's the magical word.

i've choosen the wrong path,
headin towards the wrong direction,
towards somewher i don't belong.
and i realised i was just lyin to myself all tis while
livin in my dreams,
wher i conquered the world and manipulate every single thing.
just lyk a lil princess.

i'm entangled in tis mess for quite sometime,
been thinkin thru the night,dropped my last tear...
the3questions i posted to you,the answers r clear enuff.
and i came into conclusion tht is time to wake up.
ish either me or her,you can't have best of both world.
neither m i choosin over u or him.
i'm takin awae none.

as usual how can i not be affected,maybe just puttin a front act .. guys just don't expose me alrights,and bare with my attitude.=)

just lyk wad jack say :you are 1year older now,1year closer to being a women and 1year wiser,like what i say before..know when to let go and know when to hold on.

7:31 AMsecret`told

i've bought 2 of tis haha..
LOVE THEM LOTS!
ppg saving the world before bedtime ha.

11:38 PMsecret`told

sometimes i just wonder

just who am i to be anxious?
just who am i to be over protective?
just who am i to be sensitive?
just who am i to be domineering?
just who am i to be demandin?
just who am i to be selfish?
just who am i to be worried?
just who am i to be concerned?
just who am i to be jealous?

just who am i
just who am i
just who am i
just who am i
just who am i
just who am i??could you please tell me...

girlfriend?best friend?good friend? or maybe even just friend?

i was outside last night looking at the stars and they reminded me of you.

9:19 PMsecret`told

busy busy girl
been really really busy..
as usual not attendin sch.
well i just ended my pc fair show.
freakkkkkkin tired man.

BUT neverless i enjoyed it.
kinda of missed days at wrk.
saw most of my ex colleg..
reminded me of those days wen i woke up early..
headin to wrk with with a smile ha!
not reluctant sorts lyk goin to sch.
don ask me why hmm..

and thanks dude..
for those food you ppl bought for me.
and offerin me rides home,
appreciate tht much reali,thanks thanks=)

12:54 PMsecret`told

vian's 17th birthday

thanks for all the wishes,presents,roses,cakes.
exp to ppl i did't even actually expected.
all the surprises and stuff,ha.
love them lots!
and i'm really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really touch by wad u ppl hav done.

frm my special someone*him,thanks for the company.
and those hours we spent together,rather short but sweet.
the stars,the breeze..really really beautiful.=)
exp the quarrel ya.. ha.

not forgettin my besties for sucha unforgettable bdae=)


haha and the top3 award goes too...*drum roll...
first.. chocolates,sk jewellery.

second.. roses,metoyoubear,sk jewellery

third.. idog not the hi5 ..ha


and famous vian's present ish..
flowers
me to you bear
sk jewellery
chocolates
frangrances
suprisinly cakes isn't famous tis year ha onli received 1...

lastly THANKS.
you people really make me smile.

7:58 PMsecret`told

shopping day
shoppin day again ha!
went to town den bugis with diana.
i bought 2 guess bags and some tops=) was tinkin if i shld get the bonia wallet? hmm..
hmm after which wen to visit shellen in hospital.
some infection thingie,well get well soon.
den as usual with jon,jere,and xt..
den home sweet home.=)

waitin for a dream come true..like a cinderella, that one day where my prince charming would come in my rescue.

12:18 PMsecret`told

kellyclarkson//addicted.

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time.

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

It's like I can't breathe

It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

10:59 PMsecret`told

how girls gossip frm the back ha!

9:59 PMsecret`told

shoppin shoPPIN SHOPPIN

after tht freakin borin lit lesson,
guess wad as usual shoppin time..ha
i bought a guy laroche bag and some tops..but i still wan my guess bag.
bought some for bro too.
and guess how much i spend again..
a few hundreds..arRrrRr!!
and tis is not even the startin of spore sales.
ha how m i goin to survive if i carry on lyk tht.

and i'm freakinly pissed yesterdae..
ther's a limit to everythi,
don't ever try to cross tht line.

i really wish to spend tis very special day wid you.
woud u grant my wish?

3:10 PMsecret`told

not to be missed.

great spore sales is coming,
an event not to miss girls ha!
26thmay to 23july
and my shoppin list goes lyk tis..

• guess bags
• guess sunglass
• fragrances
• adidas jackets
• siletto heels
• bed linin
• cosmetics
• wallet

after which my wallet shld hav a hole.ha =)

2:44 PMsecret`told

i miss the way u talk to me and tellin me things gonna be alright.
i miss the way u look at me and sayin u'll call me tonight.
i miss the way u say "i love you"and i stood ther in shockness.
i miss the fact that u still love me even if i woud'nt talk.
i miss your arm ard me knowin tht we were together.
i miss how i wld always write,"vian love *."
i miss how i wld give u a hug and how u wld hug me back.
i miss being able 2 say, "i'll miss you".
i miss thinkin u'll always be ther,and i'll always be in your arms.
i miss how the way u wld make me luff wen i'm angry.
i miss those time wen u wld picked me up frm wrk.
i miss the way u wld look at me with a smile
i miss havin a reason,to wake up each morning.
i miss having a reason,to go to sleep at night.




i miss being with you
without u i'm incomplete.

3:33 PMsecret`told

i'm gonna be a busy BUSY girl

cab cabbin cab..
it seems to be part and parcel of my life alreadi.
just a routine can't stop.
after sch,
just wave ur hand abit and u can get home in a split sec.

just finished my CL paper 1 todae..
and ther r more to come..
exam week.=(

gonna be a real busy girl soon,
doubt i'll be seen online tht often animore.
and excuse me if i ignore u ppl calls or msgs =X

15thmay to 19thmay exam week
20thmay lit course
29thmay o's chinese
30thmay my bdae
30thmay to 5thjune extra lesson
1stjune to 4thjune wrkin for it show

If i were the only girl in the world
And you were the only boy
Nothing else would matter in the world today
We could go on loving in the same sweet way
A garden of eden,just made for two
With nothing to change our joy.

12:59 PMsecret`told

shoppin dae on thurs?
money spended again.
can u imagine i'm out every week at least once,
and 100dollar or even up to 200 will be spended every week.
just can't help it wen i spotted somethi ... hmm..
i'll just get it for sure.

well..
didnt end up in zoo last night,
due to the rain..
we ended up catchin a movie"poseidon"
nice show=)
after which..
dinner at east coast again=)
ha*stingray..

and can you feel the love tonight, it is where we are
it's enough for this wide-eyed wanderer,that we got this far...

4:48 PMsecret`told

my`sweetie pie

i don noe who will be ther wen i'm down,
but i sure tis girl will.
usin her small little hand wippin away my tears.
saying"darnin don cry"

and it nv fails wen i stepp into grannie house..
she will run towards me with a hug..
nah nah nah
not because she misses me but misses my candies.
and she will sae."darnin wher's my sweet"*luffs.

once upon a time i was falling in love, but now i'm only falling apart.

3:48 PMsecret`told

i've been a naughty girl lately.

i ran away frm sch todae.
well know those cartoon?
wher ther's small angel and devil at each side of ur ear?
the devil seems to be tokin to me.
"vian u r tired,time to go home "
ha and i did,as expected.

and guess wad ther's art exam tml.
wen 5pgs of prep wrk r suppose to be prepared,
as i sae being a naughty girl lately..
ha i decided to walk in empty handed.=X

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.

6:55 PMsecret`told

as usual,why m i online at tis time..
ha the ans ish pretti obvious.
and why?cause i don feel lyk it.

life's borin..
i seems to be just so flooded with wrk,
and i'm simply just not movin.
my mid-year next mon?
and wad now? i can be goin to the zoo on fri.
how fcuk tub can i get.
knowin ther r stuff to be done..but just freakinly cannot be bother at all.
and i noe if i'm still goin at tis rate i doubt i can make it for o's.
well i'm just so distracted.

arrrhh..and..
fats r freakin accumulatin in my body.
wen u tink u r fat NO YOU ARE NOT!!!.
but wen u feel tht u r fat,well tht shows the diff alrights.
cause YES YOU ARE FAT!!!.
ish time for a DIET**

PeterPan:You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you.

Tinkerbell: That's where I'll be waiting."

11:10 AMsecret`told

Five things that scares you
-creepy crawlies(cockroaches!)
-ghost?
-
-
-

Five things that you like most
-my sketch bk
-photo album
-my guess bag!
-smelly pillow
-photoshop pictorial

Five random facts about you
-sleepin beauty ha!
-attitude queen
-domineering
-demandin
-fcuk tub

Five favourite colours
-black
-white
-pink
-brown
-silver

Five favourite food
-fish meat beehoon
-sweet stuff
-sting ray
-duck noodle
-porridge

Five favourite drinks
-milk tea
-coconut
-green tea
-coke with salt
-barley

Five favourite presents
-roses
-hand-make stuff
-teddies
-pendants
-black dress

Five things you wish to have
-money
-a house by the beach
-sport car
-more clothes/shoes
-more silver diamond ha =)

Five things that attracts you to opposite sex
-dressin
-x-factor
-heart
-manner
-looks

Five things opposite sex get attracted to you
-x-factor
-dressin?ha
-
-
-

Five phrase/word you say the most
-fcuk u
-har?
-so nice..
-grins*
-luffs*

Five special occasion
-x'mas
-new year
-bdae
-family dae
-

2:34 PMsecret`told

as usual i've not recover frm my backache.
hmph,and it hurts.
did'nt attend sch todae.
suppose to go malaysia with bro,
but ha mom wun allow.tsk.

hmm..
now goin east coast for supper.
yum*stinyray!

a lil conver
ok smiles k
ok i will smile cause you told me too
hmmm so sweet rite?if tht's frm ur love one?=)

9:35 PMsecret`told

backache

i've been sufferin frm backache lately,
and it wakes me up wen i'm deeply asleep.
it hurts wen i'm standin for long hours.
and it just sucks man.
wld someone massage for me? *luffs.
maybe only my darlin baby girl will..
ha,and i'm missin her now.=)

I want you to be there with me,
when the sun rises,.
and to be there holding me,
when it fades again from the day.

8:36 PMsecret`told

Lady: Why do you like me..? Why do you love me?
Man : I can't tell the reason.. but I really like you..
Lady: You can't even tell me the reason... how can you say you like me?How can you say you love me?
Man : I really don't know the reason, but I can prove that I love you.
Lady: Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend's boyfriendcan tell her why he loves her but not you!
Man : Ok ok!!! Erm... because you are beautiful, because your voice issweet, because you are caring, because you are loving, because you arethoughtful, because of your smile, because of your every movements..

Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident andbecame a vegetable. The Guy then placed a letter by her side, and hereis the content:

Dearest,Because of your sweet voice that I love you...Now can you talk?No! Therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your care and concern that I like you..Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.
Because ofyour smile, because of your every movements that I love you..Now can you smile? Now can you move?No, therefore I cannot love you
If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you anymore.
Do love need a reason?No!Therefore, I still love you...And love don't need a reason.

5:42 PMsecret`told

Tim McGraw//Just Be Your Tear

Don't know why he does what he does
Playing lost and found with your love
Trying to confuse you, use you
Girl. he's gonna lose you sure enough

Don't know why he says all those things
ALways shootin' all your dreams
He ought to know better than that
He ought to be watching his back'cause you know you know

Girl I'd love to shine in your eyes
If only for just a moment
You know i'd be satisfied
If i could only touch your cheek
Baby that's all i'd need
To make my life complete

Girl I know I can make you smile
If you knew that i was here
Wishing that i could be your tear

I dont know why he cant find the words
Saying all those things you deserve
Girl if it was me there i swear
You know you wouldn't feel so unsure
About what tomorrow would bring
Don't you know I'd give everything
If i could just hold you like him
If i could be more than just friends'Cause you know you know

Wishing i could just be your tear

if only he told me, what u told me

11:12 AMsecret`told

band concert,28thapril`o6

attended concert with leonard yesterdae.
the best pl concert ever attended,
reali it was a blast.
exp my lil junior=)
ur solo was hHmmMMmMmm haha..

after which met cliff at some cafe..
den leonard wen home to collect his car.
AND we went changi to see transexual.
finally someone wld bring me ther man!
ha but seriously they r pretti ladies.
they r GORGEOUS AND SEXY man.

den headed to east coast to hav supper..
hmm wen roundin and headed home after which.
ard3 and im freakin drained out alreadi.
but overall nice day.=)

10:33 AMsecret`told

he gave me a call yesterdae,
well just lyk ani other conver i'll hav durin night time.
abt a hour of chat or so..
and the conver end lyk tis.

vian:"i'm tired alreadi,get back to u some other day."
him: okies.

and ..
he tot i was troubled as first,but i told him no.
den he sae i've change,no longer use to be who im.
come on u left me for her, wen i needed u the most!
tellin me some dumb excuses and expected me to believe??
truth enuff i was once dumb,i deceived myself to believe ur lies time and again.
but sorry not animore,
well ther's just a limit to everything and don ever try to cross tht line.

m i suppose to be who im lyk in the past?
i'm sorry but NO?
people changes,no one stays the same.
ask me tis question "do i still love u?"
yes.but since u've choosen her,please dont hurt another girl.seriously i dont know wad i really wan from u ..but i know is not right to hold on.maybe we could just rewind back the time and be good frens again.forgetting the fact tht yes we'll once together?how nice could tht be rite?

i wasn't prepared what's ahead,could someone lead me the way?

2:57 PMsecret`told

*he just came to tok to me,
askin me hows life.
well just lyk ani other normal conver,
nothi sorts of special.
maybe feelins reali faded or
im just to numb after all tht had happen to me for the past years.

as wad ppl always tell me,
find someone tht love u more than u love him.
and tht's wher u'll find happiness.
well he used to love me more than i love him.
but now seems to be opp.

well one lesson tht i learn in life.
reali.
people comes and go.=)

bring me the magic beans and lull me into a deep sleep.

9:43 PMsecret`told

alrights i'm pretti touch by ur little action,
it was shockin and least expected.
and `yes it did brings a smile=)
it might not seems visible and so insignificant,
but somehow or rather u did make me notice ur presence now.

"When you're not here something's missing; my smile."

9:34 PMsecret`told

new hp casin again ha!

2:53 PMsecret`told

tellmeabedtime`story,singmealullaby. vian's tired

2:03 PMsecret`told

s u nday,which means i'm goin back to sch again.
alrights.
came across some blogs,
and they reali freak me out.

http://www.colinandkero.blogspot.com/

http://nickynchris.blogspot.com/

http://www.juniorang.blogspot.com/

but 1thing i realli admire them for realli.
their courage,which i don hav.=)

tuition later..
wad a drag.
ohhhh ya not forgettin fridae,
wen i saw jack online.*lol.
he's freakin makin a fool out of himself man.

1:57 PMsecret`told

borin saturday..
lazyin ard my cosy lil bed till 4+?
got up and decided to pack my messy rm.

alrights den headed to sengkang with my dad,
he ask me to accompany him down to pass some document
and hav dinner together.
afterwhich ask diana for a meet up..
and as usual ..headed to sa1..hmm

alrights.
came home and dad's client gave him some brownie.
and it tasted great!yummi man.
and me and bro was snatchin over it.ha!

2:25 AMsecret`told

so as to not sleep durin math period,

i drew all tis crap to keep me awake lol..

and even goin up to the extend,drawin on my hp.*lol.

marker drawin on hp & pencil drawin on my table.

11:04 PMsecret`told

conversation between my math teacher and i.

she:stop ther u.okies diana u go to the washroom..u!! goin to the washroom durin my lesson? and sleepin after u got back?
me:har?
she:u've been sleepin durin my lesson for mths alreadi!r u interested in math at all?
me:ya.
she:den why u sleepin in my lesson always,ish tht how u learn?
me:no.
she:den?do u sleep in another teachers lesson lyk tht too..
me:no
she:oh so u mean u only do tht durin my lesson?
me:i stared at her?
she:stop givin tis kinda of face and watch ur attitude.
me:wad?
she:watch ur attitude,u'r tokin to a teacher.sleepin beauty in the class? forever sleepin.u better stop sleepin in class one more time u gonna sleep, u'll stand thru out my lesson.
me:wadever and i walked awae.agh.

irritatin sia..sleep in class but at least i passed my math,and i wun fail my mid-year.so shuut alrights.ur lesson r just plainly borin and i don deny the fact tht i sleep thru out the mths,is nort tht i wan too,i did struggle to listen but..haha ya.zZzzZzz

7:45 PMsecret`told

Words without action,meaningless

sch's alrites todae..
well my princess did'nt came sch todae.
and obviously sch's pretti quiet without her.
cause she's usualli veri noisy*grins.

and..

i just realised,i'm spendin money at an alarmin rate.
and ish mostly on cab fare,
how spoilt,takin cab everydae frm sch..
and it certainli cause a BOMB man.
and tis ish wad i tell myself everydae."vian u gotta stop tis."
BUT haha it just repeats everydae without fail.

7:37 PMsecret`told

Are promises make, meant to be broken?
i hate it wen ppl break their promises,
and wad more breakin promises without explaination.
it just irritates alrights.

11:06 PMsecret`told

call me a bitch,slut,meano,freak..
wadsoever ya...
but it just so sO SO irritatin.
can u beileve it.
tis fren of my can actuali msg me everydae without fail,upteen times
askin me same old question,
and mind u i don reply a single msg of his...
but tis can just carry on..
gosh nor .. for mths alreadi?
mths not replyin and he can just continue..
sometimes even phone calls..
NIGHTMARE man.
but one thing we can reali reali learn frm him..
he reali hav patience.

12:24 PMsecret`told

`leaveMEalonealrights.

i don noe wad's with me,
i'm bein throwin my temper every now and den..
for no fcukin reason..
alrights,maybe i'm a lil stressed up by my studies(art?chineseO's?),or discomfort of tht irritatin runnin tap(flu)
or maybe all tis r just excuses.

and..
seems lyk i'm hatin sch,
super duper fuper guper reluctant to attend.BLUES everydae sorts?

just veri tired,tired of everythi ard me..always wearin a mask,puttin a fake smile on my face tht's tirin,nothi ish goin rite at all.
worse to worse,i'm not even lil excited of my upcomin b'dae.
wen i used to be in the past.
gettin ALL SO EXCITED!!!but now ish lyk..
come on i can't be bother.
maybe a nice dinner with my bestie will do.
obviousli not forgettin my princess diana* and wl*=)

sometimes i just wonder,wad's the xfactor tht leads life on?

8:07 PMsecret`told

went to princess diana's house.
did our art..
and for tht freakin 5hours i onlie drew 1sketch..
den wen to plaza,bought tis weddin magazine..
and we r lyk totally obes it.
alrights den wen to meet jon.

1:03 AMsecret`told

as usual i'm out with my princess.
alrights headed to bugis,
and i spotted another guess bag ha!
almost got it BUT as usual..
SHE stops me.."vian u got alot of bags alreadi,not nice nah tis one"

den the phone rang**
mettin jack,robin and lewis for dinner
jack reached alreadi was hurryin us..
we wasn't told wher dinner was held at..
alrights and guess wher's dinner at?
at freakin s e n t o s a??

but not tht bad thou..
the ambiance was nice,
everythi was nice..the sunset exp.
just tht the ppl wasn't right HA!
just so nice if u r onli with the person u love=P
and dream on vian*luffs.

den jack send us to jurong,
cause we'r gettin some at art stuff and meetin patrick..
but in the end,some how or rather..
we r mean,we did'nt meet him.

den took cab frm juron to my house..
put down my stuffs,change..
and went down to meet monkeys for supper.

3:03 AMsecret`told

please stop match-makin...

as usual i'm sick
did'nt attend sch todae.
hmmm..

2:19 PMsecret`told

vooOOooiiiiiicCccEellleeEesSs arrrr...

i suddenli felt tht i'm nort alone,
and ther r lots of ppl still carin.=)
thanks for the wishes.

alrights..
lot of things happen yesterdae.
but i'm glad ish all over..
alright,ther's alwae hurdles to go thru..
and wen u fall,u actuali become stronger.
best wishes =)

9:09 PMsecret`told

vian's sick.

down with 3fatal one.
fever,sorethroat,flu
just hate tis feelin man,feelin all so numb and useless.
ok i'm just sucha weaklin*luffs.
i doubt i can even hav a stroll downstairs,hmm..
and i..
just can't get anith done but just lazin ard tht cosy bed of my.
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...agh!

3:59 PMsecret`told

caught a movie with wilard..
the flim was somethi hills.
well i forgotten.
but nort bad .. ish veri veri gory!*yucks.

after tht headed to sa1 as usual..
den..slowli.. i'm feelin kinda of sick.
sore throat,flu..
thus headed home.

1:21 AMsecret`told

prettylittle`r e droses//yours`truly.

10:07 PMsecret`told

ha i'm officialli back to sch after a long break.
weekends and 2days self declared=)
tht's my stuff to sch ..all brown..
bag,wallet,pencilcase,ipodcasin,hpcasin and my dictionary.=)

a pretti short + long day..
ha wad m i tokin?
well basicalli onli 3lessons for the whole dae[short]
then attended tis chinna compo class[long]
and haha me and leen drew some lame stuff

and for the whole freakin draggy chinna lesson...
we aren't payin attention at all

..and the teacher was quite pissed.but who cares,we r just bad students.

7:26 PMsecret`told

self delcare for 2days=) oPps.

1:12 PMsecret`told

i'm a match-maker fer a day.
well so nice,seein two bestie in one.=)
the most funni part ish both r askin me h ow.
and..
i seems to be holdin two phone tokin to myself.

alrites nothi much..
ish sundae alreadi.
ish like so so fast..
hmm..mondae bllues..
i don ffeeeell like goin to sch tml!!!!

6:23 PMsecret`told

he went MissingInAction for a moment..
i nv receive his phone call nor sms ..or even see him online.
i was worried,thinkin if somethi had happen to him?
BUT,i did'nt bother to giv him a ring or so?
i just can't bring myself to do it.
cause i know i'm nort at fault tis time.
and nv will i give in again,he has alreadi reach my limits.

But i saw him online yesterdae and todae mrng.
somehow wen i saw him online..
i actuali *smiled,some sorts of relieve..knowin tht he's safe.
nort anger...don ask me why...
but,he did'nt even bother to tok to me.
well tis show alot isn't it.
i don noe if he knew my existence online,
but somehow or rather my six sense told me he did.
u can close your eyes to the things u dun wan to see, but u can't close ur heart to the things u don't want to feel

1:01 PMsecret`told

it's been a realli realii busy week,
stayed back fer extra lesson now and then..
tuition wen i reached home,
or ish either i'll be at grannie place.
LOTS of hw to be completed..like LOTS.
i've been like s u p e r shag.
but things r just so diff now..i don even hav the time..
or shld i sae mood/strength to reply msgs..
BUT..receivin mrng msgs reali brings a smile.=)
thanks ppl.

and after a long dae..
i wun even hav tht freakin energy to tink of anith wen i reach home.
but wad i noe ish sleeping time.
sleepin early..but still sleepin in class?
no more late night calls fer me but seems like things aren't gettin aniwher better.
GOSH..i tink i realli need a break and some fresh air.
i've been countin down ..for fri and sat.*grins.

and todae ish a F R I D AY ..lol
and i need a damn god rest *HOME.
alrites bbq tml again..haha insane rite..
every sat bbq,but well i just love the beach,
and of course the bunch of monkeys=)


once in a while, i will think that, i would have wished i never known you. but then, there's no difference now isnt it. we no longer knew, each other existence...

3:39 PMsecret`told

10:42 PMsecret`told

8:46 PMsecret`told

alrites bbq todae..
the usual monkeys of the century.
suppose to be out with him..
but we quarrelled.
seriousli till now,i can't get it rite wad kinda of guy ish he actuali?

nothi much..
was walking along the beach,with jon..
just love the breeze,the stars..
how i wished he was right beside me at tht moment.
and wen i saw couples..i tink of him*
but,i noe i was just dreamin..or maybe wishin.
hopin for a miracle.. tht ll nv come true.

u can fall in love in an instant,it's letting go that takes time..

1:27 AMsecret`told

12:20 AMsecret`told

hav i or not let go..
don ask me,i reali dun noe.
alrights,let time decide everythi whether or not tis will last.
i mean ..lets wait till a point wen his name will start vanishin frm my blog entries=)
and..i suppose tht's wen i put a fullstop to our story..
and the next chapter of my life begins.=)

but i suppose all tis r reali endin soon..
it's been at least 2daes or so since we quarrelled,
but till now..
i did'nt receive a single msg or call frm him.
neither did i bother to do the job.
well enuff ish enuff.
but tis certainly shows alot..
it shows tht life with or without me does'nt make ani freaaakin diff to him at all.
alrights then so be it.

i can forgive,but i cannot forget..and all tis accumulate.rmb tht's wad u told me.

12:37 AMsecret`told

7:29 PMsecret`told

nothi uncommon,we quarrelled again yesterdae fer the most slightest lil thing..well wher has my privacy gone too?he was actually questionin abt my wher bout...who,wher and wen? and wen i kept a shut he was pissed and now so m i.i mean come on my status ish still single,and seems like u r tiein me down.dunch be sucha lose lyk tht,since u alreadi made ur choice? her and not me.don come tell me u don love her tht sorts of crap.and wad a fool of me to actually ALWAYS choose to beileve u..u and ur lamers fakers excuses...i repeat i used the word choose..come on is not as thou i dunch noe wad's goin on but is a choice made to actually lie to onself?how dumb can i actually get.but seems lyk the promise i've made had alreadi shaken...and i jolly well know our endin wun be a nice one? maybe and why not? i shld just let go ..at least our memories wld still be a memorable one and not stained.i dunch noe all tis r just words of anger Or?but i noe i'm mentally drained out alreadi and at times tis questions really woke me up..whose hand ish he holdin?who's he actualli huggin?ish not u tht he called dear"..all in all who does he love? izzit y o u OR h e r?come on vian, WAKE UP!!!can i or can i not let go..

and someone told me tis "don let anyone spoilt ur dae,cause the dae belong to u"...thanks dude=)

10:25 PMsecret`told

my phone got freakinli bomb by jon..
wakiee..at 1.26pm i suppose.
he was like " get prepared in half an hour times k."
i'm reachin..
wen he sae? 2.30..
freakin hell..rushed up and down the house like some maddie..

wen to pick jere up..
headed to his house,waited fer him to get change etc..
then headed to marina south for steamboat!!*yum..
almost all was present.. like 10person..yae.
those usual..then after which ..
wen to colour zone..and chill out.
then yumin and shellen came down after wrk..=)

i'm so freakin shag now...*yawns.

4:15 AMsecret`told

8:56 PMsecret`told

okies.. went to the art museum..
suppose a sch outin..
Mr leow was like saein it was 10..
so the bunch of us met at 9++ at ps..
THEN HE SAY IT'LL GOING TO BE AT 2!!!
i mean like wtf????????????????
you don't hav to freakin tells us last min.. u idert.
so we randomly shop at town..and
as usual.. i nv failed to shop fer clothes..=)

8:04 PMsecret`told

11th march`06
slept late yesterdae..
after which woke up early in the mrng!!
like at 8am tht sorts??
was pretti excited fer IT fair..
well...
my 1st dae at work for shows.
diff kind of ppl i actually met..and
ish like so freakin busy and i don even hav time to drink or eat..
veri nice of patrick to buy food for me ...thanks dude =)
ended at ard 10.30..
and coyl fetched me home=)
i was like S U P E R shag wen i reached home..

12th march'06
total my sales fer the 2days...

56sets of printers sold.=)hahaha

i missed the freakin target fer top3 sales person..
by just one set..!!!!!!!agh.

7:56 PMsecret`told

i got my bunny!!!!!
well i just love my bro,
he just pampers me.

went down to holland.v petloverscentre.
spend ard 300++
got a pretti big cage,
food(diff kinds)
toys
a small lil carrier..
haha so pampered isn't it.

well well..
I JUST LOVE MY BUNNIE `popotilo.

i'm a girl,with attitude and tinks tht i'm a princess.
and i don denied the fact..
if u cannot stand me,den wad u waitin fer?
just g e t o u t ofmyway?

10:02 PMsecret`told

i was entangled into irene's prob..
which is obvious not me?*luffs.
but a pretti big huha.. entertainment to my class..well well.
http://xiaomaaoren-.blogspot.com/
her tagboard.. which ish nort me.
how childish can a person actuali get..
but well.i cannot be bother.=)

o r a l.. speech todae..
i was freakin SCARREEED..
mummblin thru watever i got to read..
arrrrhhh ..nightmare man.

11:20 PMsecret`told

well pretti borin week..
same routine tht actuali repeats everydae..
frm mon till now?..
sch.home.sleep.tv.sleep.
borin isn't it..

okies..
ther's a big h u ha. between mi and my bro..=pPPp
he's buyin rabbits fer me!!!!!
well, i can actuali buy it for myself.
but wen it's actuali a gift frm someone else.
it actuali make it reali special. =)

just like a soft toy,wen u get it fer urself..
it just looks reali ordinary..
but wen it's actuali a gift..
it's just look so special isn't it?ha.

If I ever saw an angel, it was in your eyes

7:32 PMsecret`told

w o k e up at...2+3...
yae online till now...
sundae..meaning ther's sch tml...

still rmb he loves to sae..
"gurl,mondae blues leh.."
hmm.. alrightes...
lewis cumin down now...


hmmmm..

4:17 PMsecret`told

just had my hot bath..
feels great...and i'm munchin some choco..
so nice..=PpPPp

11missed call.the great"diana"
ya.. my alarm did'nt ring and ..phone on silent mode..
sorri gurl..
had a quick bath,make up..etc..
diana came..then
we waited fer patrick to pick us up..

headed to jurong..den town den bugis..
wen to collect gucci envy me frm lp&missywen..
well..missywen cut hair..short fridge..
nicer ha..but she was nort convince...at all.

last stop at bugis..
was too too tired.
ask daddie to fetch me home..=)

11:57 AMsecret`told

All Or Nothing - O Town

I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's gotta give
A share in this relationship gets older, older

You know I'd fight for you but how could I fight somone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you I don't care if that's not fair

Cuz I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call You leave me here with nothing at all

There are time it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it , show it
Then there's times you look at me
As thought I'm all that you could see
Those times I don't belive it's right I know it , know it

Don't make me promises baby you never did know how to keep them well
I had the rest of you now I want the best of you it's time to show and tell

2:45 AMsecret`told

did'nt attend sch todae..
due to my dad's stoopig car,agh.
i alreadi got all ready fer sch..
bath,get change etc.. but the car...nvm.

as usual grannie house..
then went to meet diana..
s h o p pin as usual.
i bought an adidas watch...so niceeee=)
bought a few tee.. hmmm

then headed to meet jere and lewis..
diana did'nt wanna come along..
well then went to lewis house,
we'll like tokin abt the past and present looks.
big change,big big change. =0

well.. ordered mac ..shellen came..
and after tht headed home.. *yawns.

1:19 AMsecret`told

ish l e o n a r d b'dae yesterdae..
oPpPssic.. and i forgotten..aniwae well happi belated b'dae =)

hmm..
tok to him and we quarreled again..agh.
and i'm freakin pissed.
well i've the tot of lettin go lettin go lettin go....
i'm tired reali.. tired of holdin on.
been saein tht i've alreadi let go .. but guess nort.
but seems like tis time .. ish reali the time.

guess ish time i realli gotta let go..i just need someone to pamper me,be ther fer me.tht's all i expect.anione?

4:10 AMsecret`told

i can't seem to get the signals right.
do you or do you not.
tell me so i can hold on, or move on.
one thing's for sure,
i loved you more than anyone
and im waitin for a sign,
so i'd have the courage to say
that im missin you and lovin you..

9:11 PMsecret`told

went down to habourfront..
and on my way ther..

S T R A N G E encounters.
ther's pervertic ppl tht actualli still exist in tis world!
g o sh !
i got followed.. and tht pervertic person acted so strange..

alrights well hav tea with melody..
chit chatin and..she asked if i'll interested..
in it f a ir.

then after which went to meet lewis at town..
then saw shuhui ..
went to catch..teddies..=)
headed home.

11:06 PMsecret`told

jason me louis..
talkin abt realationship..
askin jason to buck up..well.
go fer it if u reali love someone?

and louis wrote tis..

Love one of the best feeling anyone can experience..
yet it seems to be the downfall for one and all..
It might not last yet it gives u such an everlasting feeling that makes u crave for more
It's not easy to shut it out completely ..
yet when u do..
u will be envious of others

11:42 PMsecret`told

Happy Valentine's Day =)

*thanks for all the gifts,they r really lovely =)

*don waste ur time.. i'm still waitin fer my special someone.=)

9:45 PMsecret`told

went to meet eden..
was late as usual..sorri =X
tis time round half an hour..so not so bad lol.

town was packed with ppl..
all shoppin fer last min vdae present i suppose.
taka counter queue was long..dammmnn long.

alright after tht i went to meet ter fer awhile..hmm..
then he went home..

me and eden walked down the roads all the way..
saw some playground and set ther..chit-chatt..
one of his fren came then we went drinkin..

ya then ther's tis indian guy somehow drunk or wad..
keep askin me to cum..at the playground..
damn scarrrrryy..
we headed to some coffee shop..and he followed!!!
agh..yae..den eden veri angry ..went foward to him ..
almost wacked him..i pulled him awae..continued walkin
BUT the guy still follow!!
then wen we were all sitted down..
eden wwent to him and almost wacked him alreadi..
den coffee shop ppl stop him.. well.

yae and i just reached home not long...
no sch tml.. so niceeee =)

4:19 AMsecret`told

went down to grannie house as usual..
well..
den met up with julius and nic.
headed to serangoon country club to study..
as usual we ended up slackin our way thru..
got pretti tired alreadi..
requested to go home..
went back to grannie house.
slept..and ..went home..

and ya.. ish coyl's bdae today =)
Happy Birthdae boi =)

10:22 PMsecret`told

went down to courts todae..
brought ruibin down,
told him abt the printer spec and all..

then went down to suntec to meet diana and patrick .
den headed to bugis..
shoppin as usual..and patrick became our..
shoppin bags holders,thanks=)

den after which went to meet ter..
just reached home not long ..
i'm tired.*yawns.

2:17 AMsecret`told

f a m i l y day again..
went to long john fer dinner..
our family hav been havin gatherin..
due to my grandpa condition..
everyone so scared tht he will just leave us one day.
well..hmm.

11:40 PMsecret`told