workin morning shift today.
i just cliq with ppl by the name of jonathan.
one's my childhood mates
another my colleg.

so went out with jonathan`frag after which
was shoppin at vivo.
and of course tht makes him my carrier.*luffs.
pretti fun going out with him
he's a super duper lame guy.
we'll luffin lyk mad ppl on street.

and by 9pm
i'm dead tired alrd.
so we took a cab home =)

11:04 PMsecret`told

lewis jl and ms princess.
suppose to go down to jack's pub
but pretti sick and tired of tht place.

went ard spore literally.
scary romantic weird funny places.
almost all covered in one day.
frm east to west.

the driftin exp~
exciting man!

5:24 AMsecret`told

`1stdayofnewyear

uncle dickson was flyin off
send him to the airport with mom and dad
after which dinner at swensen.

returned frm the airport with mom
and dad's out again.
he came to my house.
laze ard..

before tht monkey called ask if i wanted to go to jack's pub
he wanted to send me ther..
but i told him no.
then calls frm my dearest princess diana,
sayin she was bored.
so i said alrights down to jack's pub then.
so in the end he drove me to jack's pub
and he himself went to meet his fren.

gambling gambling!

4:12 AMsecret`told

its new year eve.
uncle dickson came to fetch me frm wrk.
and we went to grannie house together
can't celebrate new yr due to grandpa's death.
but just a gatherin on new yr eve.

well i'm reali missin grandpa.
somethi just missing without him.
*sign.

11:03 PMsecret`told

workin on vday.
thanks for all the wishes and gifts.
it did bring a smile.
roses roses roses lovely roses=)
it's all about roses.

the one i wish for was you.
not a single call nor msg,you told me you still love me didnt you?
do you mean what you said?
i'm doubting really doubting.

11:53 PMsecret`told

he came down to tangs with elson
we'll chit chattin and then
he asked me wad i wan for vday.
i was screamin and yellin in my heart.
what i wan is him* as a gift,wrapped.
but tht's impossible.
well is not abt the gift is abt thots.

...
i just smiled and say is not needed.
cause you can nv give me what i wan.

10:35 PMsecret`told

and his actual birthday today.
and the question is..
who'll he be with?
definitely not you v i a n.

10:27 PMsecret`told

his 21st bday approachin
well opened a chalet for celebration
i was told but not invited.*so sweet.
lost for words actually.
his gf will be ther anyway.

tell me how much do i actually mean to you?

10:36 PMsecret`told

alrights collected my result.
did'nt do well,
somehow predicted actually.
well make it to poly still.(=

7:33 PMsecret`told

24hours and less
i'm gonna collect my result.
butterflies in my tummy alrd.
this piece of paper gonna bring me to my next milestone.
doubt i'll do well.
i'm really scared.

12:17 AMsecret`told

people ard are askin
valentine ideas..gift,dates,etc..
and this common question just pop out.
so which lucky guy get a chance to spend vday with you?

well vian spendin this valentine with..

Mr Issey Miyake
Mr Jean Paul Gaultier
Ms Narciso Rodriguez

i've got no date,so i'm wrkin alrights*luffs.

8:30 PMsecret`told

the inner me surface

i don't know what's really wrong with me.
this just isn't my character.

so the story goes lyk this..
i was sick and i went to wrk.
if i'm not ther,
tht gay`jimmy got to wrk full shift.
so i didnt wanna be bad.

and then..

tht fuckin gay scolded me for givin away jpg paper bag
to one of my other colleague.
i mean come on is just a paper bag.
i walked away and joanne was askin me what happen

then tears started to flow.
i felt so weak and bullied
i didnt noe what came over me tht i did'nt even say him back.
tht isn't me at all,so james and QL was tryin to cool me down.*shag.

have i changed?

i'm longer tht strong anymore.

12:49 PMsecret`told

vian's really sick.

6:48 PMsecret`told

shoppin with colleagues again.
so i met jonathan at scott.
then we headed to tangs.
laming ard with tracy.
waited for james to end wrk and QL to arrive.

so jon,me,james and QL went shoppin ard.
while waitin for the rest to end wrk.
bought shorts and some top and jon was my bag carrier.
then met up with CH,JS and caroyln.

so headed for supper.
stingray,lala,tofu,carrot cake,fried keow teow
and the list goes on...
as usual lamin and crappin ard..
then home sweet home.

1:40 AMsecret`told

too bored at wrk till i start meddlin with ribbons.*isseymiyake.
and after wrk slackin with colleague again.
then met up with monkeys awhile
and home sweet home.

1:02 AMsecret`told

49days
49 days after grandpa had passed away.
alrights after the funeral thingie.
headed to malaysia.
reached home at 7pm.
suppose to meet the girlie girls.
but i was just too too tired.
thus,home sweet home.
just finished my bath and is..
sleeping time (-.-)zZzzZzz
yes,i'm tht tired.

7:40 PMsecret`told

shopping with colleagues.
spotted tis glass wine cup.
with metal roses on it.
wanted to get it
but quite costly thou.
hmmm...

bought 2 burberry fragrance frm QL.
came along with a burberry bear and sheep as gift
*cute rite:)

so we waited for QL to end wrk
and neverless supper again.
curry chicken this time round.
yummy yum!
FATS FATs FAts Fats fats...

1:14 PMsecret`told

supper with colleagues.
stingray,lala,kangkong,prawns.
yummy yum.
crappy lame ppl.
but it did brings a smile:)
and we got realli irritated with this girl at our wrk place.
agh,she's really beyond hope.

1:46 AMsecret`told

shoppin with ms diana at town.
it's been real long since we last met up.
goodness!
i miss her tht much.
i'm missin WL too..
as usual shoppin ard town.
and shopping bags..

afterwhich supper with patrick.
crappin and lamin again..
home sweet home then.

2:15 AMsecret`told

W O R K I N G

has working change my life?
it's seems lyk i'm drifting more and more away from everyone else,
i'm just too tired out.
things lyk hoggin on phone and meeting my beloved cliqs
was lyk daily kinda of thing ..
but not animore.
all i cld tink of is S L E E P.
SLEEP AND SLEEP zZzZzZz.
sleeping is a luxury.*smiles.
and during off days,it'll be just grannie house.
and i've got so sick and tired of puttin make up.
agh.
someone get me out of this dumb wrkin life.

11:37 PMsecret`told

met up with ex colleg after wrk.
really shag.
but neverless,i really miss them.
it's been almost a yr since our last outing.
had dinner together chit chattt..
home then.

and wrk tml again.
sucks.

1:22 AMsecret`told

S H O P P I N Gspree.

shopping with manda at town.
i've spent almost all my pay even upon receivin them.
lots and lots of shoppin bags!
bought 3pairs of shoes some tops and some bottoms!
it's been long since i last went shoppin with my girlies.
ever since grandpa's death?
the feelin rocks to max!
arrrrrr
vian LOVES shopping.
i mean which girl don't?
and i'm still wondering if i shld get another guess top.
hmmm..

met up with lewis at ciney
then patrick.then headed down to meet monkeys for supper.
and home sweet home.
wrkin tml again,
wad a drag!
agh.

3:35 AMsecret`told

met up with francis for supper
the fish meat noodle ish YUMMY!
what can i say.
life's great,
i'm happy with how things are now.
*smiles.
i'm like a little girl in a candy store.=)

1:21 AMsecret`told

coyl came to fetch me frm wrk tht day.
had supper together.
stingray and big prawn[that huge lyk lobster*sedup!]
as usual slackin ard,talkin abt the past.
how we missed those days..
what can i say? but time wait for no man.

11:50 PMsecret`told

W O R K I N G...

i'm real busy with wrk.
i'm wrkin pratically everyday.
hardly even have time to give grannie a visit.
lets not talk abt catchin up with the others.

1:33 AMsecret`told

had a good night rest.
after yst crazy party.
so met up again with the monkeys in the night.
gossipin abt yst event and of course not forgettin.
jh's girl,
which had gone all so crazy for him.
funni girl,i must say.
ended our day at changi eatin nasi lemak.
and the guys went for majong,
me home.and why?
cause vian's WORKIN.


you really make me smile`what more could i asked for in life,i'm contented.

1:53 AMsecret`told

it's jere boy bday.
cant wish as usual.
after wrk was waiting for lewis to fetch..
and afterwhich headed to his house
waitin for him to get change..
as usual fetch everyone else and then back to chalet.


and cam whorin with shellen...

11:20 AMsecret`told

i can't be the kind of girl who can quietly stand by ur side,
watch your doin and be someone who always silently agrees with you,follow you and dont mutter a single word.
it's because i care tht's why i bother to ask.
it's because i care tht's why i can't keep shut abt your doin.
it's because i care tht's why i wanna know wher you are.
it's because i care tht's why i'm interferin ur probs.
if i don't love,what makes you tink i care?

i'm done with the appreciation,but its you who choose not to appreciate me.i hate doing thing so seriously and exclusively yet only get back truck and loads of disappointment.

I dreamt and I dream of...

walking down the road;
somewhere i can find my happiness;
a place i feel so carefree and happy;
with the someone tht cld really brings me to The-Never-Ending-Laughter Land.
its not a big thing,
but its something i yearn for.

this time, nobody can tell me wat to do, which way to go. I decide myself. we'll see,i'm tired so tired of relationship now.
but ther's somethi i'm so sure of,i'll not tht affected anymore.
probably just to numb frm the previous tht i dont seems to feel anymore.
COME ON,i don't tink i deserve such shits.

i learnt somethi frm grandpa,life still goes on...

11:13 PMsecret`told

will you marry me,my dear?

a success but i must say is quite dull and boring.
but a *yes frm the girl lighten the atmosphere.
congrats guys!=)

3:21 AMsecret`told

It's Christmas in MY`heart.
alrights as usual x'mas at cupid.
with the usual guys ard.
but sadly only manage to take pic with lewis.
the rest will either drunk or missing.

celebrated jon's bday at the same time too
he was dead drunk.
smashin cakes,mixed sauces,red bull..
so all of us ll dancing and yellin lyk crazy.
thanks for the presents,wishes ...
and you guys shld know why i can't wish back=)

6:28 PMsecret`told

you're the best present this x'mas,my love.
it really brings a smile.=)

12:00 PMsecret`told

my girlie girl's happily married.
i want to get married too!! lyk what i've said before 25.*smiles
but wher's my boy! *luffs.

can't attend her weddin due to grandpa's death,so sorry...

11:41 PMsecret`told

the boys are getting into fight every now and then.
is this the season to get violence?
the rest was fine exp JH haha babuseng.
a few stiches here and ther.
i cant stop laughing when i see him.

and after this the next thing was..
robin wackin derrick.*faints.

1:51 PMsecret`told

i've officially started workin
at tangs sellin fragrance.
working life is full of conflicts.
so when this and that tell me that and this.
it will just be yes yes yes.
and out from the other ear.=)

10:36 PMsecret`told

mango,guess..sales again.
was shopping at town.*smiles
afterwhich as usual down to jack's pub.

alrights too many thing happening.

1st i've got sprayed by some foam thing.
and it got me pretti irritated.

2nd was robin and jere.
yes guys come on i'm not choosin either one.
what more u guys are gd friends.
i dont wish to spoil the friendship here.
sorry.

3rd was monkey
he said he's gonna proposed to his gf on the 27th=)
all the best man.

4th
i've lost my precious bonia wallet!
money,atm,exlink,keys..
fcuk it.

7:03 AMsecret`told

7:07 PMsecret`told

told diana and jon abt the funeral.
jon spread to the monkeys as usual
diana to leen,manda..

alrights monkeys was reali nice.
they came down everyday includin after jon's sis weddin.
thanks guys.
breakfast lunch dinner supper.
you guys even bought lunch down
the never fail breakfast and supper
i was really :)
can't express in words i suppose.
thanks.

those concern msg,calls.
i'm fine already.
thanks guys.
catch up real soon.

5:35 PMsecret`told

so this make me smiled.
you guys never failed to be by my side.
thanks.

2:02 PMsecret`told

6th december2006
you'll always be remembered.

yours dearest
granddotter.

8:53 PMsecret`told

x'mas approaching..

dear santa,
i wish for somethi

unforgettable

unpredictable

and somethi got to do with roses.=)

6:56 PMsecret`told

motive of drawing all this
was actually making a book.
with us as the characters and our story,
for his 21st birthday present.
but guess it's no longer needed.
i still remember how his reaction was
i send him this although did'nt told him what was that for.
but he simply show no interest.

i'm still missing those late night calls.
irritation and so..
but guess i'll get used soon.
being sad will be the last thing i'll do for him.*smiles.
alright then..
is time to start working.

6:37 PMsecret`told

he did'nt gave me any answer
but i take the answer as her*
alrights,the game is officially over.
neverless thanks for those memories.*treasured
i'll take a break no more relationship for the moment.
somethi i got to emphasize
stop matchmaking and introducing ppl.
i've eyes to look for myself.
it might be good intention but i hate it.
take note.

10:34 PMsecret`told

a very special dream came true with the word"i do"

2:21 AMsecret`told

i'm sick durin prom night.
took 300++ pictures
alrights uploaded some=)
i'm missing my secondary school life...

he*
decided to make things reali clear.
it took me long enough to realise,
i can't carry on being a follower.
so i told him in 3days time tell me an answer.
M E or H E R.
actually the answer is more or less expected.

7:13 AMsecret`told

meeting princess diana.
someone praise her.
she hasn't got her heels.
sooooo...
is shopping time again.

2:38 PMsecret`told

he's suppose to come down and fetch me from jack's pub today
then again another broken promise.
but well i'm just so used to it.
he claimed that he's sick.
alrights,he's really sick.
am i angry?
alrights pretty...

get well soon boy~

11:39 PMsecret`told

busy preparing for prom..
buying this and that this and that.
but how pretty can one get when she is sick.
god damn.
i think i'm treating him differently.
as i said i'm demanding for more.
flaring as and when..
but haven i done enough?
this is the way i'm taking and that got to be the right way.

11:32 PMsecret`told

he came,we witness this sunrise together.

pretty isn't it?

heart to heart talk.

his unsure,his troubles,his worries,his doubts

i'm so sure of my path ahead now.

5:20 PMsecret`told

feeling damn uncomfortable now,
shopping with jere at town again,
then head straight to jack's pub
alright just came back from there anyway.
mr lewis drove us back.
everything turns out well *smiles.
met up with anne too.

i beileve
i trust
i'm just waiting for the call.
will this be another disappointment?

4:18 AMsecret`told

8more days to prom night.
and i'm sick...

2:50 PMsecret`told

tension building everywhere
is it me or others?
i'm just not happy with how things are now.
well but my emo period is over.
i'm gonna live my life the way it is.
the way i love,that's me for the moment.
selfish you cld say,but i don't give a damn.

10:24 PMsecret`told

so i ended up meeting the monkeys,slacking at jere house.

making whole lots of noise,the usual disturbing and crapping,oh man that's my life!i just love it this way..sooOooo nice.
bought lewis his snowcap as promise,and tht's him cheeky look huh.
last paper tomorrow LALALALA..=)
alrights,ter was nice he wanted to teach me science.
so he called and nag and spot check if im studyin.
ther's still nice ppl ard me.*SMILES.

6:24 PMsecret`told

Happy 21st Birthday Jason Bro~
what about this guy.
he's my brother best bestie.
which is equal to my brother,and why?
he watch me grow from a little imp to a lady
he've seen the ugliest side of me,just wakie from bed*ha
he nags about my boyfriends
he can't wait to introduce boys to me *pls bro stop it.
he nags about my result
he nags about me coming home late
many many more..
but so many unknown,should i go?

jack took over cupid.
so painting starts today.
it'll be darn fun but i'm not gonna paint but sit ther like a tai tai~
so what's the use of going down?
not helping but creating trouble *luffs.
so i've got 4 choices

jason bday chalet

painting at bq

grannie house

packing my room..

2:34 PMsecret`told

so out with jere again
vivo just literally sucks.
so we headed to bugis.
shopping..
he was shopping for his clothes too.
and back to usual place jackson.
so jon,jl,jack,diana and another i forgot his name ha*
came down,the guys will drinking as usual.
alrights i'm back to my normal social life.
with jack crappy jokes and everyone starts laughing.
just love it this way~
o's gonna be over,lalalala.

2:49 PMsecret`told

2:53 AMsecret`told

quarrel quarrel and more quarrel..

oh my goodness.

but i'm not gonna be bother anymore.

live life happy and to the fullest vian's motto.*smiles.

everything that goes against my way sorry but *bye.

that's me for now.=)

11:56 PMsecret`told

jessie wissie wissie auntiie *luffs.

10:14 PMsecret`told

alrights i came across this song and it reminded me of somthing that brings a curve on my face,nice song.=)

Kelly Clarkson - The Trouble With Love Is

Ooooohhh…Oooohhhh yaMmmmm
Love can be a many splendid thing
Has another joy you bring
A dozen roses
Diamond rings
Dreams for sale
And fairy tales
It’ll make you hear a symphony
And you’ll just want the world to see
But like a drunk that makes you blind
It’ll fool you every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
Gets stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
Gets stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

Now I was just a once a fool it’s true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world’s a deeper blue
I’m sadder but I’m wiser too
I swore I’d never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn’t worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
Gets stronger then your pride

The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

Every time I turn around
I think I’ve got it all
My heart keeps callin
And I keep on fallin
Over and over again
This set story always ends the same
Me standin in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

The trouble with love is (the trouble with love)
It can tear you up inside (it can tear you up in side)
Make your heart believe a lie (Make your heart believe a lie)
Gets stronger then your pride
(The trouble with love is) See your heart its in your soul
(It doesn’t care how fast you fall) You wont remember control (?)
(And you can’t refuse the call)
See you’ve got no say at all
The trouble with love is (Oooo….ya)
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie (the trouble with love..)

10:18 PMsecret`told

he's having his exam now not wise to break any news at the moment.
alrights not that i've any.
i'm gonna get myself busy with work soon.
and those promise dates.
that should be able to keep me tired and into dreamland.
i suppose that's enough for the moment.

alrights out again tomorrow..

10:11 PMsecret`told

busy buzzyy

i'll be out today,
tomorrow,
tomorrowtomorrow,
tomorrowtomorrowtomorrow,
tomorrowtomorrowtomorrowtomorrow..
and rest on a sunday.
busy busy busy..

alrights and so this particular person msg me in friendster,the most creative message ever,oh please get a life sir.
and it goes like this..

4:27 PMsecret`told

and that's us,i'm not fully recover from my "shagperiodfromO'syet"look how o's can make a person so damn freaking ugly~
alrights so accompany cindy to shop for gown.
i spotted this cloth and i bought it.lalala
still don't know which gown to wear for prom.

and...

guess what i saw leonard and ahbert.
ha,anyway he message me in the morning..
and we'll talking about it already.
yae,he still looks the same.
he "HOI!" damn loud and i'm still in blurness state.*faints.

one more paper down *smiles.

i was on phone with all my monkeys yesterday.

jonathan was nagging.so long never come down already blablabla...

jere was nagging you everytime put me plane blablabla.

lewis and robin was booking in so short conversation only..

11:17 PMsecret`told

had a good night sleep yesterday...
after hanging up the phone
it brings a smile,much crapping thou.*luffs.

what a great day to start with

a morning message.

a great breakfast.

loves

got some lecturing from my beloved`lecturer MS DIANA,
hmph.i shall reveal part on the content.so she said this...
He who is said to be so in love with is actually with another girl who he's not in love with.
He who is said to love you can't leave her for some dumb reason.
He who is said to love you can't even have meet up with you.
He who is said to love you can't even come down when you need help.
He who is said to love you can't understand you.
I just don't beileve those dumb excuses he's always giving.
come on vian,give up and move on..

so i was in deep thots.
i really am lost!
haiz.so if i'm ever leaving..
i'll leave in silence and not make a big huha with him anymore.
like i'm leaving and telling him nots.
cause probably it just my way of making him treating me better and leave that girl.
bitch huh?
but that was the past,
i'm not gonna repeat it anymore.
but yae her words are still in my head.

2:14 PMsecret`told

this gonna be a long entry..

O's Level..
2more papers to go and o's will be officially over.
gosh,i don't even have that damn feeling that the race is about to end,
but instead i feel as thou i've just started.
well well..
i doubt i could even make it.*sign.
i'll be so bless if i did.

Grandpa..
haven't been seeing him for so long,
vian's missing you grandpa.

Him..
alrights what about him..
people are asking "have you got over him,don't be silly"
i've been thinking how? why? and questions start to flood.
i'm having doubts,uncountable ones...
was that a lie or just coincidence?
probably that's why i got so distracted..
yes,he's treating me better compared.
but i don't know why i'm feeling worse.
and i know if this carry on..
i'll demand for more.
i'm lost so lost,tell me what should i do?
probably i should just leave.
times and again said but undone,why?
cause i can't bare too.
i'm just so use to him getting involve with my life
but...everybody just gotta move on in life *sign

we shall see how things goes.
or probably i'm taking away his privillage card.
but i know he would rather me to leave than not giving him any privillages.
rite boy?

6:49 PMsecret`told

dearest Army Boy..
mr lewis is in army already.
manage to squeeze some of my time for him that day,
had supper the day before he went in.
think he was feeling pretty emo that day..
message me some stuff that you could never see this monkey getting all so serious.touch perhaps.*luffs.
it goes something like this.."...so many good friends.."
alright so he called me when he was inside
Lewis :"army life sucks,i do things that i never do outside`DOGS!"
Vianni :"but well, all guys go through this to be a man,boy."
i'm gonna get you your snowcap as promise k=) *winks.

beloved `Monkeys..
thanks for being there always
before my o's even ended i'm missing them already.
owe shopping dates with mr robin and...
owe 7days of dating with mr jere and..
mr jon,how's malaysia trip planning coming up?

i'll meet up with you guys real soon..

Prompie Prom Night..Weddings..
pretty dresses
high stiletto heels
styled hair
nails in glam
dollie facie
PRETTY GIRL`here i comee..

Jobs..
i'm working `sales line-perfume..
or probably back to canon..
interview on 22nd.

Meet up..
i'll be meeting up with all the long promises too.
i'm sorry for the delay..
and thanks for the wishes ppl.
much love =)

tellmey o uloveme`showmey o ureallycare,leadmethewaywould y o u?

6:47 PMsecret`told

i'll be off to study,back 3weeks later..


no more msn
no more breakfast
no more supper
no more outing

no phone calls will be entertain
drop me a message or so if it's darn important.=)

missing in action for 3weeks...



BUT,i'll be back.=)
so miss me*luffs.

11:38 AMsecret`told

Nov 1st - 'O' Level Art Paper2

Nov 2nd - 'O' Level Literature in English Paper 1

Nov 6th - 'O' Level Mathematics Paper 1, Social Studies

Nov 7th - 'O' Level Chemistry/Biology Paper2

Nov 8th - 'O' Level English Paper 1 & 2

Nov 9th - 'O' Level Geography

Nov 10th - 'O' Level Mathematics Paper 2

Nov 13th - 'O' Level Literature in English Paper 2

Nov 20th - 'O' Level Chemistry & Biology MCQ Paper 3

11:36 AMsecret`told

no more outie,except monday
cause i'll be collecting my lovely gown.*grins
i've this crazy obsession with gowns now.
i just bought another one.*GOSH
left one more week.
well i doubt this will work out
but miracle could happen in one week.
but then again..
i might not make it.
but too bad..
i just got to face the consequences
for enjoying too much.
anyway i just screwed my pratical on thurs.
damn it.

6:30 PMsecret`told

i've got this strange feeling.
seems like something is missing
or i'm gonna lose something.
is not anyone fault
or perhaps is my.
well as what mr jon said
time will prove it all girl.~

9:39 PMsecret`told

i'm having breathing difficultly
gasping for air kind of?
the same feeling as thou..
i'm gonna suffer from an asthma attack soon.
all thanks to mr haze.
agh.

i was reading cindy's blog.
some conflicts between she and doug.
well i really admired her for what she said.
you rock girl.

CINDY :
but frm my point of view is that since i dont trust him,
theres no point asking.is like even if he were to xplain,
i would take it as excuse.another thing is,
i dont wanna be some irratating gf,
going ard checking my bf's phone,
asking who's this girl who just called,
why u this why u that...
its just so irratating and theres seriously no trust.

9:19 PMsecret`told

i'm not that important afterall.

be selfish that's what i've learnt.

i don't worth that much.

i swear i'll make you regret for what you've did

no doubt.

i'm back to my old self

domineering,attitude,demanding

and the list goes on..

and a new pointer *selfish

you taught me that.=)

after that promise.

sorry but game over.

2:34 PMsecret`told

all shag
but i accompany *him through the night
why?
cause he's sick.
but where is he..
when im sick?
he's not the one that's around
definitely not him.
hey,i'm so tired.


when people say i deserve much better, i always smile it away.what more could i say?

12:47 PMsecret`told

my itchy hand got this started..

9:15 PMsecret`told

afterall i dont look that bad without makeup

do i? *luffs.

8:58 PMsecret`told

8:55 PMsecret`told

chocolates

coke

and i started dreaming..

i just realise
that im making too many empty promises
hardly fullfilled.
be it myself or friends.
the story goes on... ... ... ...

i've been rejecting dates
due to my beloved o's
is not that i've started..
but i just feel guilty going out.

monkeys just got back from malaysia.
meaning mr lewis is going army in a few days time.
and i cant afford to lose any time not even a simple farewell dinner.
alrights i know i'm bad.
but i'll make up for it after my o's,no doubt.

hey guys,i can't wait for o's to end.
it just sucks.agh

8:23 PMsecret`told

b r e a k f a s t

s h o p p i n g

s m i l e s.

alrights headed to town
it's been long since i had such a great breakfast with someone.
i was shopping for gowns..

bought a top from chaos,
guess what i left it in the ladies.
forgotten all aboout it.
5minutes later it's all gone.
nah,just my luck.
i'm dead tired now,hardly could move man.
but overall great day i had.
thanks =)

11:02 PMsecret`told

when i run away from you
chase me
when i pout my lips
kiss me
when i kick and punch
hold me tight
when i call you a loser
just admit it
when i ignore you
i want all your attention
when i pull away
grab me by the waist
when you see me at my worst
tell me i'm beautiful
when i scream at you
tell me you love me
if i don't call you
i'm waiting for you to call me
when i'm scared
hold me tight, tell me everything will be over soon.

jewellery that flare during special occasion only?

8:59 AMsecret`told

if god give me a wish
i wish i could die now
what a fuck tub life.
can i just sleep my life away?
i seems so drifted from everyone.
i feel weird so weird
like as if im an ailen from outer space
so tired so so tired...

10:27 PMsecret`told

6:40 AMsecret`told

6:38 AMsecret`told

i was waiting for my god damn irritating hair to dry
before my beauty sleep.
meanwhile i was reading those previous entries.
pretty stupid thou..
i was typing liKe tHis sOrt Of..
crazy me.
those were the days..

1:03 PMsecret`told

god is fair.
so turn off.

6:37 AMsecret`told

n i g h t m a r e
give me my softiee..

3:56 AMsecret`told

i can't stand the haze
it's killin me
irritates my eyes.
YES,
is that bad.

i know what i'm doing
i know what's happening
i know is time to get focus
i know i can't hide
i know that's truth

but then again..

i can't be bother
i choose not to be bother
i don't want to be bother
leave me alone.
is time to be focus
study time~

6:05 AMsecret`told

art art and art...
i'm still struggling with prep work*goodness.
im not least started with studyin yet.
fcuk it man.
im only left with 3more weeks..
i must get stared.
I MUST I MUST I MUST.

and i came into a conclusion that guys are simply not so simple and they are untrustable.
oh my damn god shit.

6:15 PMsecret`told

i don’t deserve such shit from you people man god damn sick
maybe i’m at fault but i don’t think so.
and i don’t think i owe any explaintation
the usual me i always thinks that im right
can’t stand me?
fuck off then.

7:19 AMsecret`told

my first day out with my shoeis today
i dont know why but i just feel so damn proud*grins.
alrights,ive 3 people wanting to get my sheoeis already.
29per pair.*SMILES
but i only can get started after my o's.

i went back to grannie house..
aunt said that grandpa has been calling my name in his dreams..
mistaken daring for me,*vivian vivian,come...
he has been seeing things too..
hmm sad isn't it.

i must get myself moving.
i seems so stuck~
haiz.

if you don't wanna help yourself,i can't help you either.*i don't care if you hate me for what i did,it doesnt matter.

10:41 PMsecret`told

probably he's just the one.

6:41 PMsecret`told

shopppping..
i top up my candies and chocolate corner.
i got stuffs i need for art.
i think i'm crazy or something.*luffs.
i bought different kinda of shampoo.
trying to come to a conclusion which is better.
alrights so far i've used..
sunsilk,dove,herbal essence and vs sasoon..
i think herbal essence is not bad.*luffs.

i realised i've been making empty promises.
i'm really neglecting my friends,*monkey especially.
sorry to jere especially.
yes,i'm ms plane queen always.=P
i'm just to busy juggling with school and home.
really tiring to run back and forth to grannie place.
i'm not just physically tired but mentally drained out too.
hopefully all this will end so soon.
grandpa is getting better *SMILES

alrights i'll end of with some entertainment stuff...


leonard show me this.. is damn bloody lame and funny man.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JRBo4ncMROE
AND
leeping show me this..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=94SZYWYQc9A

11:15 AMsecret`told

i bought a blank shoeis..
and drew some stuff on it
TADAHHHhhHHhHHHh..

12:17 AMsecret`told

it's been 25hours since my beauty sleep.
was on the phone with ms diana till morning
some crazy idea stike me to meet her.
alrights had breakfast together.
after which went to her house to laze.
saw her art piece, is nice BUT I WAS DAMN SHOCK!
ms princess if you ever read this...
YOUR ART ISH FAR BEHIND,gosh please ...
oh and where am i..
i've finish my course work!YOOUUUUWHHHHOOOO..
now is time to chiong prep work..

alrights headed to grannie house
bought bean curd for grandpa,
and home sweet home
i'm dead tired now.

12:35 PMsecret`told

alrights been dropping tears now and then,
that's not the vian people knew.
i'm getting so emo.WHYWHYWHY
the inner side of me has finally surface after so long.
grandpa is realli ill.
but one got to face the fact..
that your beloved ones will leave you one day.
whatever it is i'll treasure him as long as he is alive.
i'll be a strong girl ..i'm to strong to fall.
i love `my beloved grandpa.*smiles

yes,he's losin his memory.
not remembering his love ones.
but guess what! he remember me.
or probably cause i'm the naughtiest in the family ha.

i bought pumkin cakes for him the other day
panda cake for him yesterday
carrot cake for him today.
ohhh and i massaged his legs.=)
hmm..what should i get for him tomorrow?
any suggestion? somethi realli soft..
hmmmm..


whatever will happen will happen,everyone got to face death someday.i'll be strong.

11:43 PMsecret`told

ORIGINAL.
kiss slowly,
love deeply,
forgive quickly
life is too short for you to be dissappointed any longer
EDITED.
kiss slowly but why love deeply,
forget quickly
life ish too short for you to be disappointed any longer.=)

3:52 AMsecret`told

i'm angry
i'm sad
i'm getting so emo ..

grandpa is getting from bad to worse..
i'm so lost now..so lost.
but i know grandpa wants me to be strong.
whatever is goin to happen..
i know i know that i need to complete grandpa last wish
to finish my race.
i know i will.
a promise to you, my dearest grandpa.

8:32 PMsecret`told

i feel so stressed up.
i might be smiling
but then again i'm not happy,
not at all.
i was thinking thru those evils deeds i did in the past.
i feel so mean so so mean.
but i'm still like this now i guess.
example:when i hate someone that person will nv escape my evil mouth.
alrights,
i'm getting a little emo now.
leave me alone for the time being.

where's she,where's she,where's this beautiful girl.

9:10 PMsecret`told

my darling ish reaching out for her so called stars*goodness.

4:08 PMsecret`told

11:39 PMsecret`told

CRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMPPPSSSSSS...mommmmii..

10:44 PMsecret`told

all i could do was to close my eyes
and wish that the slow song would never end.
but somehow it did..
and even faster that i expected.

11:01 AMsecret`told

tomorrow is monday again!
WHAT THE HELL !
WHAT THE HELL!!
WHAT THE HELL!!!

11:38 PMsecret`told

i'm missing

alrights met mel earlier..
she came to fetch me and we headed to town.
S H O P P I N G =)
we went marche instead..met the guys ther..
2girls and 6guys. how nice..
great day i had.
it's been long since i had a great laugh...
crapping and laughing our way through.
it feels good seeing those familiar faces again.
hmm.. i'm really missing those days at work...
oh ya mel's getting married and we're invited =)

alrights stay over at grannie house again.
i cooked dinner tonight *grins
having fun cooking without having to clear up the mess.*how nice.
having the thot?OMG VIAN COOK?
yes i cook alrights!
sample it if u're lucky enough=)

12:32 AMsecret`told

bbq change to dinner*swensen at town.
im gonna see my beloved colleague in 7.5 hours time.
i can imgine what's gonna happen later..
we'll be reminiscing about times at pc show.
oh man..i'm really missing those days at work!

vian's back smiling again=)

12:05 PMsecret`told

i was in the lift with the same boy again
such a coincidence isn't it.
what's so special about him is..
i think he resemble jere.=)

too many things are happening..
and i know i can't take it any longer..
just putting a fake smile.
but well that's me.

"It's better to fight for something than live for nothing."

12:01 AMsecret`told

1:51 PMsecret`told

naughty little girl
i've been getting from bad to worse.
firstly not studying mid-year.
secondly not studyin prelim.
thirdly not attending prelim.

and..
now i'm feeling a little sick.
slight flu..omg!

1:47 PMsecret`told

i've been going down to grannie place now and then.
i was with grandpa the whole day.
till 1030,dad came and i was goin home.
i told him,i saw the tears in his eye.
guess what i don't know why but my tears started to ...

i'm really scared that one day he might just leave the world..

11:36 PMsecret`told

i'm not going to talk about him* here till my o's end,i swear and i promise.

11:16 PMsecret`told

NO SCHOOL,but it does'nt seems to make a difference
slept at 1am,
princess was asking me to accompany her online.
he came to talk to me yesterday.
asking me how's life?
telling me to take care.
and he told me he misses me=)
alrights i miss you too.
i was about to type how's life..
then again i told myself NO~
so i didn't reply,anyway he told me not to.
he's not prepared to come back,not at all.
seems like my words fall on deaf ears.
i said:if i ever receive his call,msg,msn i'll take it that he's coming back.

alrights,
i was dead tired then already.
i woke up at 6am in the morning again!
healthy lifestyle isn't it?*smiles.

6:39 AMsecret`told

it is 6.10am now
healthy lifestyle as i said.
i saw this is some unknown blog..
pretty lianish,but meaningful i guess.

never say "ilu"
if you don't really care
never talk about feelings
if they aren't there
never hold my hand
if you meant to break my heart
never say forever
if you plan to part
never look into my eyes
if you're telling a lie
never say i'm the one
if you're dreaming of another
never lock my heart
if you can't unlock it

6:14 AMsecret`told

grandma and grandpa's house,kids spoilt here.

there's this quotation at grannie place
that bro bought long ago.
it's hell true.
you get pampered like some little princess.

i lead a healthy lifestyle here

eating my 3meals regularly
sleeping at 10pm and waking up at 9am.

8:39 PMsecret`told

i received a mysterious message from nicolas
after a period of time he went MIA.*girns
was messaging then i realise i'm late
till then i forgot all about him
so i did'nt reply till now.=)

in the mrt heading towards town..
guess who i saw..desmond? *luffs.
alrights then met ms princcess at orchard mrt.
as usual shopping then went for facial.
and our day ended.

alrights went home,packed some stuff
and headed to grannie place.
stayed over..
as i miss my `beloved grandpa *smiles

he's online now and i miss him so damn much.
i was questioning myself..
if he felt the same ?
is he missing me as much ?
i've the urge to click but i told myself "no..
even if, that will be after o's.
or maybe after o's i've a change of heart?
who knows what will really happen.
till then my promise for him should had already ended.
and maybe that's when i'll be really leaving.
cause he said "girls and boys can never be good friend"
well i don't think so ..
cause i've many.
but i'm really wondering how is he coping at the another end.
is that girl giving him any more problems?
or have they become love birds?
then again..
he's stonger than me.
he don't need me to be there ,i suppose.

9:52 PMsecret`told

i was doing art in school today.
hell lots of stuffs to carry home.
jack's nice,he send me home =)
a little bit more,just a little bit more...
and i'll be done.

i went back to grannie house.
grandpa is dead sick.
he looks weak,
and he's losin weight...

please lord,don't take him away from me...

8:00 PMsecret`told

papers after papers i took
and i know nuts about what i've written on those papers.
crapping my way through i suppose.

pau and pui have been mean this mrng.
they say evil things to *
i heard it*luffs.

i wonder why people could be so happily in love,
while me,always ended wounded.
i saw those smiles.
friends around me seems so =)..
then again what abt me?
my eyes must be crossed(X.X)that i could never pick the right guy in my life?
so tired.. so tired of relationship that i don't wish to attempt anymore.
is either the boy i love never seems to be my or..
those boys that love me never attract me at all,
that i don't even wish to steal a glance at them..
but all in all..
i suppose i've learn my lesson after 2fall.
not to take relationship to seriously.

i wonder how's life over at the another end.
then again,i doubt i should bother.

i missed those star gazing nights

10:23 PMsecret`told

some lame stuff,just for entertainment purpose.
adapted from cindy's blog.

Qn: Why is fish cunning ?
Ans: cos yu pian mi fen (fish lie to bee hoon)

Qn: What animal falls down the most?
Ans: Fox, cos they jiao hua (cunning)

Qn: Xiao ming drinks milk to grow up, Da ming drinks what?
Ans: Da ming drink wine, cos Jiu Yang Da Ming

Qn: Which chinese host does not have centre parting?
Ans: wu zong xian (no centre line)

Qn: Why Zhou Jie Lun Cross the Street Kana fine by police?
Ans: Cos Jay Walking

Qn:Which emperor (huang di) is blind??
Ans: Kang xi (Can't see)

Qn: How does a fish laugh?
Ans: HE HE HE (in hokien)

Qn: How does a prawn laugh?
Ans: HEI HEI HEI (in hokien)

Qn: Why baby don't need to brush teeth?
Ans: cos bei bi wu chi

Qn: Which button on your keyboard cannot sing?
Ans: F4

10:09 PMsecret`told

end of sept holidays,
back to old school days,
prelim had officialy started.
the feeling of going into exam hall not knowing a single shit
just literally sucks.
but a relieve to say that my art is finishing soon.

i'm putting on weight.
having supper almost every night*hell it.
kfc,mac,pizzahut,dianxin,desert,smoothie.!!*hmm..
time to keep track cause..
i want to be a PRETTY GIRL!!!*smiles.

i think i'm gonna have a change of password soon..
why?
cause vian feel like it.
ask from me if you want it,or be that smart ass to guess it.=)
if you know me well enough,should be able to *luffs.

have i already give up or am i still waiting?

11:04 PMsecret`told

9:12 PMsecret`told

neoprints



crazy little girls *spot that lil imp.

i was out with my princess and manda.
really crazy day we had.

eHhhhhhHHhhhHh!!
i heard this,loud and clear.
i turned back and i realised..
i'm really missing him*.
but i'm tring my best to distract myself.
getting used,without him.
hopefully as days goes by..

alrights many incidents that got us so pissed.
ohh there's one thing i must say.
please get a life guys,*smiles.

then i'm out in the night again..

5:04 AMsecret`told

i'm out for supper last night.
nice night i have,
it really did brings a smile.
then again thanks.=)

i love you but i shouldn't.
i'd tell you but i couldn't.
i'm the only one who will ever know.
so on with my life i'll try to go.
i'll try to ignore the sick feeling i get when you're away.
and not to hang on every word i hear you say.
no longer will i let your smile melt me to the core.
when your eyes meet mine, i won't blush anymore.
is time to end this.

3:43 PMsecret`told

this is freaky,something funny too.*luffs.

Jeremy.t told me this..
Take things with open stride. Failure is success's Bad Mummy. says:
how is it
t hought s. says:
wad thing how?
Take things with open stride. Failure is success's Bad Mummy. says:
bring u out la.
Take things with open stride. Failure is success's Bad Mummy. says:
but is bike huh
Yihao told me this...
HaOGsR says:
i see.. hai.. i tot of riding around today
t hought s. says:
i don't like to ride bike.

i told both of them and copy and paste each other conversation to another.then again,is this the sudden trench at tis hour? lol
what's freaky is they type the same thing almost at the same time!omg,lol.
then..

Jeremy.t told me this..
Take things with open stride. Failure is success's Bad Mummy. says:
so u goin out with them lo..
Yihao told me this...
HaOGsR says:
u go with him lor

9:22 PMsecret`told

he called me last night,
only after 2days,8.28pm.
what's the purpose?
i was overjoyed yet shock.
the blinking light and the overwhelming music...
i saw how it faded.
2missed calls..

i was afraid that history might repeat,
give those calls a missed.
friends,i meant what i said.
i'm leaving,i'm moving on.
but i need time.

den again what was the call for?
explaination?reasoning?or..?
i'm curious,but i'm sure he isn't prepared to come back yet.
i gave you a choice,you choose to ignore it.
don't come back till you're really prepared.

lead me not into temptation,please

3:17 PMsecret`told

i hang up princess phone..
cause im feeling the kick.
is been 35hours since my last beauty sleep.
but then again.
how i wish someone could knock me hard in the head.
i just can't fall asleep.
till early morning..

i don need the sympathy
i just wish to be alone
ill be fine after which
then i told myself :i'm strong to strong to fall.

3:21 PMsecret`told

after sleepless night.. *spot tht eyebag.
and we called my new friend*pinkie.


neoprints...

i'm feeling rather down still,
but someone gotta leave.
i didn't sleep and i went shopping with my princess.
i'm dead tired now..
anyway she simply rocks my day to max.
ilu*bitch.

we went crazy and yes i think i was crazy for a moment.
moody,crazy,moody,crazy.
my mood really swing.
we shop like money simply drop from the sky,
or our dad owns a printing money shop.

i spent ard 200 bucks
simply on zara,charles&keith,neoprint and food.
but it simply brings a curve on my face.
shopping,neverless gurls best fren.=)

12:31 AMsecret`told

i'm getting a little emo now,
i'm being heartless here yet i'm complaining.
what a bitch i'm.
with my princess consoling me in msn asking me to move on.
telling me facts,explaining to me what's right from wrong.
yes indeed i've woken up from my dream,
a world that i manipulate all this while
i've put to a stop,a real stop.

it bothers me so much,
felt so lost and empty within.
harping on to something that's never seems to be my.
hoping someday dreams becoming reality.
but before that could actually happen.
i felt like i had no other choice,and i'm leaving.
it doesn't hurts to dream but it hurts more to wake up.

lets recall..

chapter 1
6years ago,
how we actually started talking on phone.
i was young and naive then.
i found him pretty irritating,pestering me all day long.

chapter 2
then i started to notice him.
we became good friend,
someone that i can really turned too.
we exchanged troubles,
he's like an elder brother to me.
we grew closer as each day passes.

chapter 3
then i was in love.
we were off contact den.
and back after is over.

chapter 4
after my n's i started to work ,
and we got even closer.
i still remember the day when he came all the way down..
just to had lunch with me,
it brings a smile really

chapter 5
we started meeting each other pretty often.
till then i think he was a nice bro?
that pampers little sister.
even though i knew that he's in love with me.
i don't feel much of a chemistry then.
and i told him is impossible.

chapter 6
time passes..
i realised i'm falling for him
for no particular reason

chapter 7
another day out basically..
he just grabbed my hand,
i was shock really shock kind of.
till then i think he was aware that yes i'm falling for him.
but i pushed his hand away.

chapter 8
i told him is not an easy task.
10wishes before i'm yours.

chapter 9
06.01.06 my baby boy is my.

chapter 10
the first major quarrel that tore us apart.
his ex phone call,a nightmare to me.
that girl demanded an answer from him when he was driving..
asking where was he and with?
guess what he answered?
i'm with my friend.
my heart shattered,it hurts,it hurts so badly
that my mind when blank.

chapter 11
we quarrelled and guess what he told me?
him: i told her that because i don't wished to quarrel with her.
then again boy,what about me?
did you even bother how i feel at that moment?
so you do have the intention of quarrelling with me don't you?
him:you are my gf you should understand.
fcuk is the word,kindly put yourself in my shoe,
it does'nt make sense.
i think you'll go crazy for god sake.

chapter 12
quarrel quarrel and more quarrel..

chapter 13
he told me that she* wants to commit suicide.
it seems a lie,or rather i thinks is a lie.
asking me how.
i told him this.
don't ask me how,you already got your answer don't you?
then please go ahead.

chapter 14
we broke off.

chapter 15
still friends and slowly we're acting back like couples.
and he got sour when i'm close to any guys.

chapter 16
things got pretty draggie...
he told me he still love me and not her,
it just a responsibility towards her.
i choose to deceive myself and believe whatever he said.
but till now, what's the truth?

chapter 17
he came down on my birthday
and celebrated that very special day with me..
but it was rather disappointing,
he don't seems to get what i really want. ..
had a long conversation that night,just sorting things out.

chapter 18
this triangle relationship carries on..
i'm hearing the same old things over and over again.
i'm starting to get tired really tired.
with all my friends going against what i'm doing make me more frustrated.
i just needed someone to support me?
not even my cloest friends agree with what i'm doing.
den again ..
i tried to wake myself up from my dream
but it did'nt quite help.

chapter 19
i came to know his friend
and he got pretty anxious.
he admitted it.=)

chapter 20
he came down,yes he kept his promise.
but then again, 2hour?
might as well not.
i'm pissed really pissed.

chapter 21
i ended this with a message.
i told him not to reply.
is either he really respected my decision
or he literally cannot be bother
that losing me does'nt seems to matter at all.
no reply.

chapter 22
i'm struggling hard.
it hit me badly,real badly.
and it hurts so much that i never know that he's actually that important in my life.
that i lose my interest in everything.
but then again,i did'nt blame him for that.
it just me being stupid holdin on.
and probaly i deserve it.

i guess everybody saw it coming,i'm dumb too dumb.
i'm just fooling myself.
or should i say i'm not even me.
the attitude girl,i used to be..
that everyone just got to give way.
but let's take it as a lesson learnt.

it took me long enough to wake up.
eventually,it's gonna fade with time,i know i gonna be fine after that.

.....if only our ending will be a perfect one? or maybe in the near future.
i'm hoping,but then again will history repeat?
i'm scared so scared of falling again.
but i'll keep my promise to you.
if you're ever coming back.. i don't wish to be hurt again.=)

4:06 AMsecret`told

alrights what about yesterday..
i did'nt really sleep,
thinkin hard and i came to a decision.
i shall walk away without turnin back.

i'm quite sure about this.
it's been a really draggie one.
yes i'm being very heartless here.
but i'm just tired too tired to hold on anymore.
that i would rather fall and hurt myself for once.
and yes i'm missin him lyk fuck now.
but no,no more turnin back.
time heals all wound i guess.=)
if you ever read this :i'm sorry.


went to pc fair again with bro,
guess what he bought me a imac!!!
best bro ever,ilovehimtoMAX.

den went down with xt to jon house.
and i told xt this:please drive as fast as u can.
which normally ill ask him not to.
but it feels good when u're in a bad mood.
we slack our day ther. went for supper with jere.
after which home sweet home.

my princess said :in life you just gotta make choices.

3:52 PMsecret`told

HOW I WISH
how i wish time would stop for us.
how i wish he's still my.
how i wish i'm greeted every morning by my love ones.
how i wish i'm driving.
how i wish i'm still young.
how i wish i'm done with my o's.
how i wish i'm still working.
how i wish i could forward or turn back the time.
how i wish i could get what i want.
how i wish i could open a candy shop.
how i wish i don't have to face the books anymore.
how i wish my house will be flooded with roses and sweets always.
how i wish granpa's health condition will improve
how i wish i wasn't born.

2:31 PMsecret`told

suppose plans today and it seems little dumb.

suppose to go get my art stuff with jon *
suppose to meet terence/monkeys at night*
suppose to have dinner with francis and jeremy after show*
suppose to go back to grannie house*

then again ..
i ended up
afternoon: tourin round spore with jack..
evening: meetin diana at night for pc show
night: ended with coyl,max and another lady.=)

let fate decide,where our story will end.
i'm tired really really tired,
i'm sorry, but i can't hold on anymore.
lets part our way.
in this world people can't have many choices.
but just one.=)

1:27 AMsecret`told

mrjon,took 2day mc.
suppose to be out with him on friday and the other monkeys.
but then again, i think ...
alrights then
mrlewis got his car licence
and pls boy STOP SHOWIN OFF.*luffs.

i've been a real naughty girl recently.
what more,i didn't attend school the whole week.
i'm sorry girl,i didn't attend school,as promise.

i don't know what i reali want,can you tell me instead?
i'm smiling,den again,how long can this last?
i'm tired rreeaaaaallly reaaaaalllly tired.
how about you?
aren't you tired too?
i bet you are and is this the best way out?
well i doubt so...

4:27 PMsecret`told

I'MJUSTSOFUCKINPISSEDOFF,JUSTFUCKOFFANDGETOUTOFMYSIGHTPLEASE!!!!!!!!

den again young lady please maintain your language.

4:17 PMsecret`told

i'm so in LOVE with red.

10:20 PMsecret`told

went to get more art stuff again..
den shoppin shoppin and more shoppin!!!
i got my guess bag!!*grins.
and some tee.
alrights was ask to go to jack's house for majong section..
BUT NONO..shoppin's nicer.=)

8:45 PMsecret`told

eng oral was fine,
but i screwed todae pratical up.
well i can't be bother.
the time now ish 7.32pm.
and i really need a nap.
i'm freakinly hell tired man.
maybe i'll give my monkeys a call fer supper later.=)

i'll be rushin my art for the next few days..
or maybe weeks.
so i'll probably be missin for a period of time=)
nights ppl~ *yawn.

7:37 PMsecret`told

alrights went back to bugis yst to get some papers for art..

as usual shop ard..and i spotted a guess bag!!!

and i'm gonna get it lol=)

8:20 PMsecret`told

10:11 PMsecret`told

we: she's not worth it.
him: no,i'll wait.
the tears in his eyes,wen she left him..i saw it.
is tis the kinda of guy we girls r hopin for?
well it makes me stood still and ponder for a minute.
lookin back at my life,
and see wad kinda of guys did i actually get in the past.
2words:bad guys.

7:14 PMsecret`told

Happy Birthday WL

thanks for being tht mad fren all tis while.
i love u bitch.=)

10:19 AMsecret`told

fancy paperssss..

make a wasted trip down to fancypapers..
and it's closed on sunday,
fuck shit.

so decided to shop at bugis and take neos..not tht nice thou.

11:13 PMsecret`told

alrights another monkeys day out.
went for dinner together as usual..
hmm ambience was nice,dinner was great.
den we started with our usual topic"relationship"
disagree,agree..and we started debatin...yes no no yes...

headed home pretty early.
den out again.

i was just waitin for tht promise call till 7am,but yet you disappoint me once again.how sweet of you=)

3:47 PMsecret`told

chocolates`fondue'cheezycheese,roses`mylove.

6:11 PMsecret`told

wad abt sch?
attendence lyk shit lattely.
is lyk a 2days sch instead of 5.
well i just hate the thot of wakin up early just to attend sch
it just sucks.
wad more i'm still ill.
i'm mentally,physically drainned.

come to tink of it
ppl ard me r havin relationship prob
they seems to turn to me for help.
and i can't do much..
come on bros,
take a step at a time.

oh ya..
i got a a b3 for chinese o's
and distinction for oral=)

7:23 PMsecret`told

don't drown me into your sweet whisperin,i don't wanna fall into another love trap

and yes i'm makin comparison.

7:49 PMsecret`told

sweetie home

i'm back home!!!
stayed over at grannie house for tht weekend..
and i missed home
i was typically rushin my art.
and guess wad i left my beloved charger at home
so pratically no phone for the weekend *faints

met up monkeys,
went to newton for supper..
hmmm..alrights den jere change his batt with my=)
but still it did'nt last long..*luffs.

4:38 PMsecret`told

10:51 PMsecret`told

HappyBirthdaySingapore!
alrights suppose to catch the movie"click"
but i was up late last night,*phone as usual.
so.. i did'nt woke up in time to fullfill my promise.=X

pretty shag but still i dragged myself out of bed and..
headed down to grannie house to attend cousin bdae.
flooded with kids and ppl,
tht u cld hardly even find space to walk
ha,aren't i such a family person *luffs.

received jon phone call askin for a meet up..
BUT i'm too too tired to make a trip down alrd.
sorry guys.

11:36 PMsecret`told

holidays approachin but why aren't i smilin?

10:28 PMsecret`told

i'm ruunin a temperature now and..
NO i can't afford to fall ill now!
coughin,sore throat and irritatin runnin tap flowin.
*GOSH,i'm faintin.

alrights,
and i tink my attendence is reali bad.
lets recall..
last week i attended 2daes
tis week i onli 1dae

4:46 PMsecret`told

i got myself a crazy fren.*luffs.

6:08 PMsecret`told

5:58 PMsecret`told

edited pic for diana..


well my life now..
art arT aRT ART AND ARTTTT.

11:19 PMsecret`told

de·mand·ing
dom·i·neer·ing
a·tti·tude·queen
sleep·ing·beau·ty
fam·ily
dar·ling·sweet·heart
cheeky·WL
prin·cess·DIANA
ir·ri·tat·in·MONKEYS
Rascal Flatts - What Hurts the Most
I can take the rain
on the roof of this empty house,
that don't bother me.
I can take a few tears
now and then and just let out.
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while
even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again
i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most,
was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away

ROYAL

sweets·stuffs
li·ttle·pillow
sketch·book
power·puff·girls
bet·ty·boop
mu·sic

MAJESTIC

ma·ssage·CHAIR
lap·top*done
clo·thes*done
o2·atom
power·puff·girls·bed·sheet*done
heels*done